I guess I'm afraid that if I take a step forward, I would forget these emotions. I'm afraid of becoming just like everybody else, soulless, wandering alone trying to keep up with time. I'm terrified if I look in to someone's eyes I won't understand it. I don't want to ignore them. The worst feeling one could possibly experience is loneliness. Assuming that nobody would ever break you out of this endless solitude. That no one would show you the warmth of life.
I'm worried that if I were to move on I'd eventually forget these lessons, feelings and passion. If I engross myself in trying to keep up with others, I'd lose sight of what I want to achieve. I'm paralyzed, anxious and confused. I know in my heart, I won't tell you to keep living if even I don't want to. Or convince you to stay if even I am reluctant that everything would eventually become better. I know that if I don't move and find an actual reason that'd keep me grounded, everything would be all for nothing.
