Ryeji - What is love?

Chapter 43 - Break

POV | Yeji
All this time, she lied. She lied about Lia, she lied about Heejin, she lied about trying to kill herself, she lied. I was right. One lie leads to another. I don't understand why no one can tell me the truth? I mean I only had one secret and that was about me trying to kill myself but that was personal.. these lies keep getting revealed so I'm just waiting for another one. What is love? I found myself asking that over and over. What is it? I mean I think I know. It's about passionate feelings for each other and I have that for Ryujin. We literally belong together. She can't live without me. I know that. But she has to stop lying to me. She has to. If she really wants us to work, she needs to stop. I sighed, picking up my phone and stuff. Ryujin came out, looking at me, "Y-you're leaving?" I walked over, placing my hands on hers, "You'll be fine. I'm just gonna take a break for awhile-" Ryujin broke into tears, falling to her knees, "This is all my fault! I should have never lied to you... honey I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.. I love you.. I love you honey.. don't leave me.. don't leave me.. don't leave me.. please.. please.. I'm begging you.. I will never lie again.. I'll do anything you want.. I'll kiss you.. I'll have sex with you.. I'll do anything!!" I felt my eyes just puff up and feel watery. My lip trembled, "R-Ryujin.. let me go.." She held onto my leg, sobbing. "Please.. please.. I'll do anything.." I helped her up, kissing her. She kissed me back, still crying. "D-don't leave.." I nuzzled my head against hers, "Ryujin.. listen to me.. I'm not leaving you.. we're still together.. I still love you.. I just need some space for awhile.." Ryujin opened her mouth but no words came out. I stroked her cheek, "I-I love you.." I felt the tears hit. I grabbed my luggage, biting my lip hard. I walked towards the door, stopping for a second. "Y-you love me.. r-right?" Ryujin stayed put, "O-of course I love you.." I took a deep breath, licking my lips. "B-bye.." I twisted the doorknob, feeling a lump in my throat. I walked out, and sobbed. "T-that was hardest goodbye ever.." I continued to walk, going out to my car. I still cried, putting the bags in my car. I got in, driving off. I hated doing this, but I really needed space. I can't handle the toxic things. I tried taking my deep breaths to calm me down.

| Time Lapse | 4 weeks later

Today was May 20th. 6 days til my birthday. I turned off my phone completely. So how did I know the date? I counted the days with a calendar. I was living in my car. A small little ghost town. The only time I'd go out was to get food. But that was it. I laid in the back of my car, looking up at the ceiling. I could remember that moment with Ryujin. When she was crying. Felt like yesterday. But it had been 28 days, 672 hours, 40,320 minutes, 2,419,200 seconds. I missed her so much but I needed to do this for me. I wanted things to go back to how it was.. where we weren't keeping secrets or only together for sex and cuddles. It was 11 pm. Couldn't fall asleep. I was up counting how much hours, minutes, and seconds there was in 28 days. It was just something to do. I huffed, moving a bit. The pillow felt hard. I can't live like this anymore. I should do it. I sighed, going to my drivers seat. I started the car, very little gas. I went to the closet gas station. I only had 12 dollars left. I needed to get more money. I needed to go back. I hated that. I paid for the gas, filling the tank. The employee looked at me, "When's the last time you've showered?" I sighed, "28 days ago.." He gagged, "Gross.." I smiled, "Thanks.." I got back in the car, leaning my head against the headrest. I thought of when we first had sex in this car. I remember I had her in the backseat. Ryujin. I miss you. I drove off, I had to go back. What seemed like an eternity, I finally made it to the dorm complex. I was surprised I even got there without a phone. I opened the door, taking nothing. I just went up to was used to be my dorm. I looked at the door. "Don't come in unless you are Yeji." I'm sure no one would follow that. I twisted that doorknob. I looked inside, "H-hello?" I walked around, feeling like I was gonna collapse every moment. "R-Ryujin?" She wasn't here. It was just Hongsam and Byul and Dal. They barked and meowed at me. Atleast someone was here. The place was a mess. Stains everywhere, dishes scattered around, the TV was broken. This place looked like it had been robbed or something. I gulped hard, going into the bathroom. I looked horrible. My shirt was torn, my pants were too. Everything looked horrible. I flinched when I heard the door open. "Ryujin.. you have to eat.. I will force you to.." That voice. I couldn't put my finger on it. I opened the door, looking at Ryujin with Yuna. How in the world did I not know that was Yuna? She sounded different. Like if she had hit puberty or something. Ryujin looked very pale and sick. Like me. "I-is that? Is that?" Ryujin blinked a couple of times. I was frozen. I was seeing Ryujin in what felt like forever. "Ryujin.." I coughed, realizing I hadn't spoke in awhile. Ryujin ran to me, holding me so tight. I held her tight too, we both smelled horrible and looked horrible but that didn't change a thing. "Y-Yeji.." She said. I closed my eyes, "R-Ryujin.." Ryujin started to cry, "F-finally.. I thought you were dead.." I wrapped my arms around her waist. "W-we had a funeral.." I widened my eyes, "A funeral?! You guys seriously thought I was dead?" Ryujin chuckled, "My baby.. my baby.. she's back.. is this even real?" She pulled away, feeling parts of my body. Yuna was in shock, she was crying. "I'm real.. I think.." Ryujin hugged me again, "W-what happened to you? Where did you go?" I rubbed her back, "It doesn't really matter right now.."