mental state

6. if you wanna

Two days ago I was on that hill with Tay. For some reason that was the calmest moment in a long time in my life. Tay just stayed there with me and we just held eachother while admiring the sky. Nothing more nothing less.

As always Tay has been "missing" for two days now. When I call he doesn't answer and when I go to his house he's never there. So I just wait around for him to turn out again.

I was showering when I heard someone come in.
"Hey mom! Is that you?"
But no one answerd.
I got scared. Quickly I turned off the shower got out and put on a towel.
I slowly opend the door.
"Mom?"
"Nope it's me!"
Sayd a happy voice behind me.
I flinched and swung my elbow at the persone standing behind me.
I turned around to see who it was.
"Owww you bitch!"
It was Tay.....
"Oh it's you"  I sayd with an annoyed voice.
"What is wrong with you? You break my stomach and then you just stand there."
He was crouching down and whining in pain.
"Oh grow up I didn't even hit you that hard." He went quiet but didn't get up.
"Yo, you good?" Maby he's really hurt.

Suddenly he swung up and flew me over his sholder.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"
"I'm gonna punish you, that's what I'm doing." He seemd so mad. He was walking towards my room.
"What about your stomach? And besides you were the one who came in and acted all sus!"
"Shhhh, no need to make a fuss."
He plopped me onto my bed. He towerd over me as I was sitting on my bed.
"Dude I'm like soaking wet. My bed's gonna get ruind." I sayd while tightening the towel around me.
"Dont worry, I'll be quick"
"No, no, no. I am not in the mood not like this, nope."
He leaned over. Got reaaal close.
"BAHAHAH WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
"I'm tickling you! That's what you get!"
"NOO BAHAHAHA STOOP"
i was rolling around on the bed trying to escape from his tickles but no where was safe.
"CMON STOOP! BAHAHAHA"
He laughed aswell. His laugh was warm and friendly. Finally I grabbed him and swung him under me on the bed.
"I sayd.....stop."
He looked so shocked.

He placed his hands on my hips and stared at me.
I leaned in and kissed him.
"Imma get dressed now."
I got up and changed right then and there infront of him.
"You've gotten brave."
He sayd with a smile on his face.
"Oh shut up, it's nothing new to you."
"True. Hey you got any weed?"
"What? Why would I have weed?"
I asked while jumping and pulling up my sweats.
"Idk, just asking."
"You wanna get high?"
"Mhm. I know a guy, if you wanna."
"Sure why not."

Not once in my life have I smoked weed. But who better to try it with than Tay.
So we got going.

We didn't walk long untill we were there. It was surprisingly close to my home. And the house we enterd looked all too familiar.
"Hey, Tay. Welcome, come in come in!"
A tall dude came to welcome us by the door.
That voice, where have i heard it before?
Tay shook his hand.
"Short time no see Jerome. How've you been?"

What? No way! No fucking way!

"This is Ally."
It all flashed before my eyes.
Jerome came in to hug me.
"Hey Ally, nice to meet you. I'm Jerome."
As soon as his hands touched my bodie, I puked.
"What the fuck man!"
Jerome pushed me away.
My eyes got foggy and I quickly stumbled outside. It can't be. After all these years, I cant believe this. Everything I've kept locked away behind that door came bursting back and flashed before my eyes.

"Ally you good!? Ally?!!"