Kpop fluff/smut

Johnjae (Angst)

TW: ⚠️BLOOD, MISCARRIAGE TALK ABOUT DEPRESSION⚠️

Jaehyun had just got pregnant and he was still in his first trimester but the stress of dancing and everything was too much on his body and the baby and he unfortunately miscarries.

I'm not joking about Miscarriage this is a real issue that people go through and I'm not mocking or making fun of it in the slightest, it's a dark story so if you can't handle it then skip to the next possible chapter or just stop reading until I update.

Johnny and Jaehyun found out Jaehyun was pregnant 2 months ago.

He was excited for the baby but knew it would be a hard 9 months since they have so much to do already but he wanted the baby.

Johnny was excited to be a father and he knew how Jaehyun was, it warmed his heart to see his boyfriend that happy.

They had been waiting for this one moment for the 3 years of their relationship, but they just were too busy to have a baby but right now they were so thankful.

When they told the group they were so excited to be uncles, especially Jisung.

He was probably the most excited out of the whole group, he was ready to take care of the baby while Jaehyun and Johnny went on dates, or if they needed alone time, he was ready for all of the ups and downs.

He wanted to teach him how to dance, to sing, to rap whatever.

He was excited and even told Chenle they should have a baby of their own but Chenle said no.

Jaehyun went to his checkups like they were scheduled and he seemed to be perfectly healthy, but when the doctor said he should slow down on practice and stuff and Jaehyun told her he couldn't, it caused complications.

There was so much stress on him to be the best he could physically be and he knew something was wrong when he had weird pains while performing in the concert.

They were currently performing Kick it, Punch, Superhuman, Make a wish and Gimme Gimme.

It was a lot he knew but he could handle it, well he thought he could.

He had been having pains off and on but he just assumed they were normal so he brushed them off and just did what he was supposed to.

About a hour in the concert, he felt the pains get stronger but he couldn't stop he was in the middle of the dance, so he just brushed them off as best as he could.

The concert lasted about 2 hours as it was a regular one so they had breaks and everything and they could talk to their fans a bit afterwards as well.

When they were talking to the fans Jaehyun was in obvious pain and Johnny noticed.

Johnny walked over to Jaehyun and wrapped a arm around his waist making sure he was okay.

"Are you okay baby?" Johnny asked which made Jaehyun nod but have a obvious pain again.

Johnny knew something was up and told Taeyong they would be back, which Taeyong just nodded and let them leave as it must have been important.

Jaehyun thought he had peed on himself or something so he went to the bathroom Johnny following him, but when he pulled his underwear down there was nothing but blood.

Jaehyun's heart dropped and he knew what happened.

Johnny saw the blood and put the pieces together, his heart dropping and him tearing up grabbing some spare towels they had in the bathroom and tried to stop the bleeding.

Jaehyun sat there in shock, he wouldn't believe what his brain was telling him, he couldn't.

He was in a lot of pain and Johnny knew he hadn't accepted what was happening yet.

"Baby look at me" Johnny said softly knowing Jaehyun knew what was going on but not wanting to accept it.

"P-Please don't tell me what I think is happening" Jaehyun said obviously in pain and his voice cracking a bit.

"Baby, just don't look down okay, keep your eyes on me" Johnny said trying to keep him calm.

Johnny grabbed his phone and called Taeyong letting him know it was a emergency and the door was unlocked so he could come straight in.

Taeyong ran as fast as he could which was really fast and opened the door closing it and locking just as quick.

"What happened" Taeyong asked seeing Johnny crouched down looking up at Jaehyun.

Johnny shook his head not wanting to say it and that's when Taeyong understood.

"Oh Jae" Taeyong said crouching down in front of him, seeing the tears start to form in his eyes as he slowly started to accept it.

"I-I'm miscarrying aren't I?" Jaehyun asked softly, trying not to break in from of Johnny and Taeyong.

"I'm sorry" Johnny said holding onto Jaehyun as Jaehyun couldn't hold back the sobs any longer and just let it go, he couldn't believe it.

He lost his baby.

"T-This is m-my fault" Jaehyun said sobbing into Johnny's chest as Taeyong took over for Johnny.

"No baby it's not. You couldn't have stopped it." Johnny said rubbing his back softly, trying to get him to stop crying.

"I-I shouldn't have gone out on s-stage today o-or this wouldn't h-have happened" Jaehyun said which broke Taeyong and Johnny's heart.

"There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. I couldn't imagine losing a baby." Taeyong said, Looking over at Johnny who looked like he was going to cry.

He knew Johnny was trying to be strong for Jaehyun but that was his baby, his son or daughter.

He would have broke by now but Jaehyun needed him.

Jaehyun hadn't stopped sobbing and he could barely breathe, He was so sad and shocked that he couldn't stop no matter how hard he tried.

"I'm sorry" Jaehyun apologized which made Johnny look away for a minute.

Taeyong looked over at Johnny and knew he needed a minute.

"If you need a minute take one. I'm right here for him." Taeyong said which made Johnny shake his head and wipe the tears away from his eyes.

"I'm fine. He needs me right now." Johnny said which made Taeyong nod understanding.

Jaehyun felt broken, like he couldn't be fixed, like there was nothing to live for anymore.

Taeyong called the ambulance a few minutes ago and they arrived a little while after Taeyong and Johnny got the bleeding under control.

Jaehyun was rushed to the hospital to have test run on him but he didn't care, he wanted his baby but he or she wasn't there anymore.

All the test came back normal which is not normal after a miscarriage so they kept him overnight and released him in the morning.

Taeyong had explained what happened to the group and they were heartbroken.

Especially Jisung.

When Johnny and Jaehyun came back from the hospital everyone gave the couple hugs and their condolences since that baby was their family too.

Jisung was heartbroken, he had to leave because he broke down and he just needed alone time which made Jaehyun end up crying again.

It took awhile, but Jaehyun and Johnny finally got back to their old selves and Jaehyun ended up getting pregnant again, this time actually not miscarrying and actually being able to have a baby this time.

Of course their angel was missed but Jaehyun knew his little baby wouldn't want him to be depressed and actually would want him to move on since he or she was in a much better place.

So after awhile, they moved on and started a family.

IM SO SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN FOR IT TO BE THIS SAD I COULDN'T EVEN FINISH WRITING IT SO SORRY ITS TRASH BUT I CANT REWRITE THIS WITHOUT CRYING-