Kpop fluff/smut

Johnmark (Angst)

Mark is depressed but refuses to let it show, when Johnny finds out he's upset, but he's also angry at mark for keeping it inside of him for so long.

Tws: Self harm, Depression, Sexual abuse, Rape

I'm not saying any of this is okay, it's just a story !!!

And I know mark is perfectly happy irl and I know his dad is a good person so don't think this is real, it's just fiction.

It had been a rough few years for mark, his mother had gotten into a wreck and almost died, his father sexually abused and abandoned him, his best friend left him for another person, The only people standing with mark was his best friend and crush Johnny, His mom and his other friend Jaehyun.

Mark was depressed after everything, he felt like no one loved him.

Not even his mom.

Not even Johnny.

Not even God himself.

Johnny was concerned for mark, he hadn't been acting like his old self, the normal, happy, smiley mark.

He was now just, Emotionless, straight faced, tired mark.

Johnny was a few years older then mark, but that didn't change their relationship.

Mark was currently by himself at his house, waiting for Johnny to come over.

He didn't feel like putting his fake face on but who was he to tell his best friend he can't come over?

Johnny would be suspicious also because Mark never says no.

Mark was currently laying in bed crying his eyes out, he didn't know why he was crying he just felt like he needed to cry.

Johnny was only 5 minutes away by now and Mark knew that.

Mark had only cried in front of Johnny when his dad left and his mom got into a car accident.

He didn't cry when he his friend left him but it did break him on the inside.

Something in Johnny's gut told him Mark was not okay, but he didn't really believe his own intuition. If Mark wasn't okay he would tell him. Right?

Johnny loved mark, he was his best friend, of course he would love him.

Mark had developed feelings for Johnny after they became best friends.

Johnny always knew how to make him laugh.

He knew how to comfort him when times were rough.

He knew how to make Mark smile.

He knew how to make Mark happy.

Mark heard a soft knock at the door, mark quickly getting out of bed wiping his tears, not know how red his eyes were and how obvious it was that he was crying.

Mark ran down the stairs and opened the door, smiling softly at his tall best friend.

"Hey mark, are you okay?" Johnny asked seeing how red his eyes were.

"Y-Yeah I'm fine! Just allergies" Mark shrugged.

Johnny knew he was lying but didn't say anything and walked with mark to Marks room.

Mark realized how messy his room was and knew Johnny would be suspicious.

His room was always clean.

He was never lazy, he would either be working around the house or he would be dancing in his dance studio.

"Mark, are you sure your okay?" Johnny asked sitting next to mark putting a hand on his arm.