Kpop fluff/smut

Dotae (Angst)

Grab your tissues idk if it will be sad or not so if it is just have them prepared.

Taeyong is going through Anxiety, Depression, And on top of that he is starving himself. Doyoung finds out and tries to help Taeyong.

Taeyong was going through anxiety, depression, and he was starving himself.

So far he had lost 10 pounds and still didn't think he was good enough.

He also had cuts all over his body and usually red and puffy eyes.

He had isolated himself away from everyone that cared about him.

Especially his boyfriend Doyoung.

Recently, Doyoung and Taeyong had gotten into a fight, which just made Taeyong's anxiety and depression worse.

He would have anxiety attacks at least 4 times a day or more.

He wasn't mentally or physically okay.

Doyoung was currently driving to Taeyong's house surprising him.

He had bought flowers, chocolates, his favorite food and more.

He hasn't seen Taeyong since their fight and haven't heard from him even.

So he was going to show up at his house, with all his favorite things.

After Doyoung arrived, He had a weird feeling, he hasn't seen Taeyong in 2 weeks, he knew he had bad anxiety but he couldn't think of anything else that came to mind.

Something in his gut was telling him that Taeyong was hurt.

He rushed to the door finding it unlocked, he rushed in throwing the stuff on the counter and rushing to the bathroom where he saw Taeyong cutting into his skin.

"T-Tae" Doyoung said tears forming in his eyes as he saw cuts all over his body, Blood dripping.

"W-What are you doing here?" Taeyong asked dropping the bloody knife.

"I came to check on you, oh god Tae what have you done?" Doyoung asked looking in the cabinet for a first aid kit.

"I-I'm Sorry" Taeyong dropped his head, tears falling on of his eyes.

"Why would you do that to yourself?" Doyoung asked getting something to put pressure on the wounds.

"I-I don't know. T-There were voices telling me to do it. T-They told m-me nobody l-loved or c-cared about me" Taeyong said trying to calm down.

"Oh god baby, you should have called, I would have come and helped you through this. You know I would have." Doyoung said softly pushing Taeyong's chin up.

"Look at Me" Doyoung said softly making Taeyong look at him.

"I love you, and nothing will change that, I don't care if you have anxiety, depression nothing will change my love for you." Taeyong tried to stop crying but just ended up losing to his own emotions.

Taeyong was sobbing, not being able to breathe.

"Shh baby, you've got to calm down, you'll make yourself sick, take a deep breath" Doyoung said taking a deep breath and letting it out slowly, hoping Taeyong would follow his lead.

Taeyong tried to take a deep breath but couldn't catch his breath due to his crying and anxiety attack.

"Baby shhh Your okay just breathe" Doyoung rubbed his back trying everything he could that would help when a anxiety attack.

Taeyong calmed down a bit but still not where he needed to be.

Doyoung pulled Taeyong against his chest, hoping Taeyong would match his heartbeat.

Taeyong slowly calmed down, relaxing into Doyoung's touch.

Doyoung could feel Taeyong's bones, which made his eyes widened.

"Tae" Doyoung made Taeyong turn around.

"Yes?" Taeyong asked rubbing his red and puffy eyes, wincing as they were sore.

"Take off your shirt" Taeyong's eyes filled with tears.

"W-Why" Taeyong asked.

"Have you been starving yourself?" Doyoung asked making tears slip out of Taeyong's eyes.

"N-No why would you think that?" Taeyong asked wrapping his small arms around his stomach.

"Baby please, I'm trying to help you. I can't help unless I figure out what's wrong so I can help you or get you help." Taeyong nodded lifting his shirt up slowly, tears falling down his cheeks.

When Taeyong took shirt off fully Doyoung's eyes filled with tears.

His stomach had shrunk and looked like his rib cage was going to pop through his skin.

His waist had shrunk a bunch.

His arms were just bones, he had lost all his muscle, all his fat.

He looked like he was anorexic.

"Baby what happened? Why would you starve yourself?" Doyoung asked pulling Tae in for a hug.

"I-I felt fat so I started starving myself so I would lose weight" Doyoung shook his head.

"Please don't do that. That isn't okay. That isn't the way to go. You were perfect the way you were. You were the perfect weight. Size. Everything." Taeyong nodded and started to calm down.

"I love you" Doyoung said bring Taeyong in for a small kiss.

"I love you too" Taeyong said back softly.

As weeks went on, Taeyong started gaining weight again and started going to the gym. His anxiety and depression wasn't as bad and he felt confident for once in his life.