Kpop fluff/smut

Chensung (Angst)

Chenle is fighting depression and is thinking about ending his life when Jisung talks him out of it and tells him how he actually feels about him.

Tws: Depression, self harm, suicide mentioned

Chenle is just a teenager going through the struggles of life, He has been fighting depression since he was 16.

He is now 18 and about had it, he just wanted to die and didn't feel alive or happy anymore.

But at the same time he didn't want to die, he wanted to be there for his friends and family, but he wasn't even there for himself so how would he be there for his friends and family?

Jisung was the closest to Chenle and knew some things but didn't know Chenle would self harm or wanted to die.

He knew he had anxiety and depression so he tried to help him as best as he could, he couldn't lose his crush and best friend.

Chenle was currently in his bed not having enough energy to move, he was done with life.

He didn't want to move he couldn't fake it anymore, he needed to tell someone how he feels before it ends up killing him.

Chenle got out of his bed, grabbing his phone seeing 8 messages from Jisung.

Good morning!!

How did you sleep?

Chenle?

Are you still asleep?

Chenle?

Helloooo?

Answer me please!

I'm getting worried...

Chenle sighed and replied so he wouldn't freak out anymore.

Sungie I'm fine, I was just laying in bed.

Chenle smiled softly, he knew he was lying to his bestfriend but it was better then telling him he wanted to die.

Jisung replied as fast as he could, being relieved his friend didn't do anything stupid.

Oh thank god! I was just checking on you xx

Chenle knew what he wanted to do, but he knew it would hurt others around him.

Jisung was secretly on his way to Chenle's house his gut told him something bad would happen so he just complied and drove.

Chenle got out of bed and saw his razor blade, just staring at it, he was thinking about ending it right now, but he would probably do it later in the day.

Jisung was at Chenle's house practically jumping out of his car, running to Chenle's door.

He knocked multiple times until he got a answer.

"Jisung? What are you doing here?" Chenle asked as he cracked the door enough to see who it was.

"Chenle, thank god your okay, my gut was telling me something bad was about to happen so I just drove as fast as I could over here." Jisung explained seeing the blank expression on Chenle's face.

Chenle just hummed not even trying to pretend to be shocked anymore.

"Your gut was right." Chenle said, making Jisung confused.

"What do you mean?" Jisung asked confused, Chenle finally letting him in.

"Jisung we need to talk." Chenle said, finally deciding to open up about how he feels.

"I'm scared. Chenle I don't understand what's going on and your scaring me." Jisung answered honestly.

"I'm going to explain to you what I've been hiding for a long time now, you may not understand but I just want you to know okay? Promise me you won't tell anyone?" Jisung nodded scared.

"Lately, I've been depressed and anxious as you know. But that's not the only thing I've been feeling like I want to die. I know I can't because I'll make everyone I love upset and question why I would do such a thing. But I've been thinking of killing myself." Chenle said tears filling his eyes as he actually told someone how he felt.

"Chenle Why didn't you tell me sooner? I could have helped you through this and made you feel loved, wanted and gave you something to live for." Jisung said a tear going down his cheek.

"You couldn't have known. I shouldn't feel like this but yet I do." Chenle said holding Jisung's hand.

"It's normal to feel depressed. I get down but I know I can't stay down. I have to pull myself together before I do something I regret." Jisung said squeezing Chenle's hand.

"Please don't kill yourself. I love you too much to let you go." Jisung said trying not to cry.

"I-I can't promise anything." Chenle said knowing he can't keep a promise.

"Then promise me this" Jisung said putting his hand on Chenle's cheek.

"If you go down, I go down, we go together." Chenle shook his head no.

"I can't let you do that" Chenle said looking at Jisung concerned.

"Chenle, I can't live without. If you die I die. That's how it works. Chenle there's something I need to tell you." Chenle furrowed his eyebrows confused.

"I love you. In more then a friend way." Jisung said softly.

"You what?" Chenle was confused.

"I love you?" Jisung said.

Chenle blushed a red tint and smiled.

"I love you too" Chenle said going in for a kiss.

It was a bold move since both of them were awkward but neither cared.

Jisung kissed back instantly putting his hand perfectly on Chenle's neck.

Let's just say they got they're happy ever after, Chenle was no longer suffering from Depression and both of them ended up together.