DIFFERENT -Eli Moskowitz-

13.0

written from Kay's perspective 

I left school, and started walking to Eli's house, trying to think of things we could do together that would cheer him up. Or things I could say to help him feel better, but nothing came to mind other than 'it will get better'. There was no way I was going to say that to him though, because that's the last thing people want to hear when they're upset. Within the next few minutes, I had made it to the end of Eli's driveway, and my nerves grew. I forced my feet to carry me to their door, and I gently knocked on it. I heard footsteps grow louder from behind the door, and prepared myself to have Eli open the door, and for me to just engulf him in a hug. My smile faltered a little when the door was opened by Mrs. Moskowitz. 

"Come on in Kay, he's in his room. He's still hurting though, so just be gentle on him, okay?" She told me, as she stepped to the side and let me walk in. She closed the door behind me as I nodded to her. 

"Okay, and again, thank you so much for letting me come. I know this probably seems crazy but I really want to help him." I told her. She took my hands into hers, our eyes locked together. 

"I believe you, just... please don't be leading him into a false sense of hope. If you really care about him, which I think do, you'll stick around whenever things get rough and not just the first few times." She said, tears threatening to spill for her eyes. I squeezed her hands, as I looked at her with the most trustful look I could manage. 

"I promise you, I will always be there for him. Always." And with that, she nodded to me, and we let go of hands. I slowly made my way to Eli's room, and stopped once I was outside his door. It was closed shut, so I knocked on it, hoping he would come open it. After knocking once, there was no answer, and my panic levels started to rise, so I knocked again but a little bit louder this time. It was quiet for a second before I heard a loud groan come from the other side of the door. 

"Go away mom, I don't wanna talk to you." Eli sputtered out, his voice shaking from crying. I felt my heart shatter at the sound of his voice. How could anyone be so terrible to someone so kind. Eli deserved the world on a silver platter and instead it was like he was served to the world instead, and the world decided to chew him up and spit him back out. 

Gently, I turned the doorknob on his door and poked my head through the crack. Eli was lying face down on his bed, and I could see his shoulders shaking slightly, so I knew he was crying. I quietly let myself into his room and shut the door behind me. He still hadn't heard me come in, so I made the brave decision to do something that may go terribly wrong. I know that when I'm upset, I just wish I could have someone lay on me. The weight helps me feel grounded and it calms me down, that's why I have so many weighted blankets at my house, so I decided to risk it and go lay on Eli. I walked over, and gently laid on him. He immediately jumped and looked to see who was laying on him, and I cautiously smiled at him. He smiled back for a second, before his eyes glossed over once again, and he started to cry harder. He pushed me off of him, and to the side of his bed. 

"Go... away..." He sobbed out. These words stung right through my heart. I knew Demetri warned me about him not liking people see him upset, but he was even more harsh than I thought. 

"I'm sorry Eli, but I can't do that. I'm staying until you feel better." I told him, reaching over to rub his back. He shrugged my hand off of him, so I placed it onto my lap, and curled my legs under me so I was sitting cross-legged on the side of his bed as he laid there. 

"I don't want your pity! I know what you said to Kyler!" Eli spat at me, lifting his head to look at me, and what hurt more than the words, was the look of betrayal on his face. Despite wanting to cry at how Eli obviously felt about me, the confusion was a stronger emotion, and the one that was shown on my face.