DIFFERENT -Eli Moskowitz-

14.0

written from Eli's perspective

One second I was feeling insecure about my lip as Kay looked at it, and then the next second she was kissing me. So many thoughts ran through my brain at once. 'Why is she kissing me?' being the main one. I awkwardly stayed still the entire time, not daring to kiss her back because I had never kissed anyone before and I didn't want to be awful at it. Within a few seconds she pulled her lips back from mine and I let out a breath I didn't realize I had been holding. She smirked, almost sadly at me,

"I'm sorry." She said, pushing herself up from where she had been pretty much laying on me, and off my lap to sitting cross-legged beside me.

"I- uh- you- it-it's okay- I- uh- why did- kiss- umm-" I stuttered out not being able to put a full sentence out, embarrassed that she had made me speechless, but too flustered at the moment to care. She let out a little giggle, and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear while looking at me, this time a small happy grin on her face instead of the sad one that was previously there.

"I don't know what to say now.." She giggled out, "I've just made things terribly awkward haven't I?" She asked sighing. I opened my mouth to try and respond, but nothing came out, so I closed my mouth again and only flashed her a cumbrous smile, which I doubt helped the situation any.

The issue is, I don't know how to act in this situation. I like her a lot, but I don't think she likes me back, and I feel like she only kissed me to try and make me feel better because she assumes I like her, which I do. But I don't want to tell her that I like her incase she doesn't like me back the same way I like her, but I still want to be friends with her and I don't want to ruin the friendship. The other problem is that I've never kissed anyone before, and I don't think I can count that as kissing her, because I didn't move at all, I might as well have turned to stone, I moved that little. Now I'm trying to keep myself calm and not think about it too much, especially so my hormones don't go out of whack. There are just too many things on my mind.

written from Kay's perspective

He opened his mouth again, as if to say something back, but then he closed it again. I was so worried that I had just ruined everything between us by being stupid and not being able to control myself. He didn't even kiss me back for crying out loud, he really must not like me the same way. The silence was getting louder and louder every second we sat there, so I came up with an idea to try and just get us out of his room, and doing something different.

"Umm, would you like to maybe go get some ice cream or something?" I asked. He didn't say anything, he just nodded. Slowly we both got up from his bed, and made our way to his kitchen, where his mom sat at their table.

"Hey guys, what's up?" She greeted us cautiously as if she was worried she would scare us away.

"Umm, could you take us to go get some ice-cream at the shop in that little strip mall in town?" Eli asked her, his voice shaking slightly. I'm sure his mom assumed it was from him crying, which I guess it could have been, but I made the assumption that it was because he was still frazzled from me kissing him.

"Oh!" She responded shocked. "I mean, yeah, of course. Just let me go grab a sweater and my purse and stuff." She said as she got up from the table and went down the hall, headed for her bedroom. I looked over at Eli, and he was blushing and looking around, trying to find something to keep his attention. It was honestly kind of cute and I couldn't help but let out a little laugh. He turned to look at me, and you could visibly see that he started breathing harder.

"Wh- what?" He stuttered out, speaking to me for the first time pretty much since the kiss.

"Nothing, I'll tell you later." I smiled at him.