Until (Session 1)

Chapter 4

Rian POV

Nagising lang ako dahil may boses akong narinig, parang may seryuso silang pinag uusapan. Sila mommy at daddy pala yung nag uusap.

"Mahal kaylan natin sasabihin?" tanong no mommy kay daddy. Anong sasabihin? May tinatago sila? Kala ko'ba no secrets?

"Sa tamang panahun mahal, ayukong mabigla si Rian." sagut ni dad. Bigla? Ano? May tinatago sila? Takte!.

Dumilat ako and I act na wala akong narinig. Tinawag ko sila at gulat...

'Ano po ba ang tinatago nyu?'

"Hey, princess are you okay know? Do you want something? Are you hungry?" sunod sunod na sabi no mommy.

Ang gusto ko, ano yung tinatago nyu?

Kati na Kati ko na gusto yung sabihin sa kanila pero ayuko silang unahan.

"Nahh no mom and yeah I'm know okay... Uhm where's kuya's?" tanong ko.

"They go school.. They said they will visit ko here." si daddy na yung sumagot sa akin.

Tumango ako, paalam mona sila para bumili ng pagkain sa baba. Ano ba ang tinatago nila? Bakit ayaw nilang sabihin sa akin? Alam ba nila Kuya yun? Unfair nila! I don't have a secret to them! And now! Argh! I'm now a big girl or should I say I'm a woman now!

They can tell me! I will understand them! Anak nila ako! Kakainis!

Wala akong ginawa dito sa hospital room ko kaya I turn on again my phone to search some music. Music is my comfort zone, listening the lyrics just like they gave me a advice.

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world no, no
Breakin' out, breakin' in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no, no, no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
We can really never have it all no, no, no

I still remember this song... Kinanta ito nina mommy sa akin nung 4 years old ako. Ito ang lagi nilang kinakanta kapag papatulogin nila ako, o, umiiyak ako. Yan din daw ang naging favorite ni mommy.

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
And so baby, just smile
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me?

Hope you feel me mother. Feel me that I have to know the truth.

This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me?
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, woah

Why mom dad? Kelan nyu ipapaalam lahat? What is your secret mom?

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

'Cause oh, can't you see
(can't you see)
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
(just smile)
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me