Inspirations and Motivations

Untitled (if you start, don't stop)

You know, those days when you feel like the world is up high while you're lower than low? While I do, but do I let it get to me? Of course, not. It's not like me to stop and wonder at the riddance that fell behold above me and neither do I stop to question my authority in beholding the key to a person's heart. I am me. I am true but I may be known  to you as the faker. I'm not trying to ruin your life, look at the past and tell me how many times have you felt bewitched by my traumatic errors? Have I been bad with you I would understand, but I have been everything but bad. 

I am a girl.

Here you go, I said it and it may be a puzzlement or horror to your ears, dreaded like terror and fear heard like blood in the ears. You see, everytime we hide from others we hide for a reason, knowing that somehow someone out there would not be blessed to see the good in us. It's not I care about the path that breaks the bond between me and you but indeed, I care about the times we should've had instead of the ones we could've had. You say that I am good, yet as soon as you know a lie you keep walking as if I'm invisible air; just  a part of your everyday life.

I'm a girl.

Is that so hard to say? No, yes, maybe? Well, I'm done with lying and done with living but know that sometime in the near future I will get the most pleasure out of the good times I have with others.

You say that you would've been my friend if I hadn't said a lie, yet I tell you the truth and become bewildered with an expression of hate coming from you. You say that I'm a faker, so I ask of you to tell me who the hater is. You or me? Be honest, It's not about lying anymore, it's more like who cares about who.

I've done many regretful things, but even humanity does not forgive; I thought that it'd be easier to forgive rather than forget, yet your eyes seem as impaired as the beautiful sunset glow. Tell me again, why have you thought of me on this hateful and gloomy day?

They say that life is too difficult to live and that being alienated is the worst cause in live, what do you think because as of now your look says it all.