Inspirations and Motivations

Life

Do you know how many times I tried to give up on this world? How many times I wanted to be happy but never was committed? How many times I brought myself back up only to be dropped again?

Yea, I've seen and done it. I know how I was acting, I was trying to be a selfless, helpful person. Most of all, I was trying to be a friend, but how can I be a friend when none of my friends are friends? I mean I've tried to hear other's problems, and I've dealt with them but It's hard to do that when my problems are bigger than theirs.

It's my natural, human instinct to want to help. It's part of my personality, but I can't help when I can't trust myself to do or say the right thing because I'm focusing on the how and not the why. How can I help? How can I be better?

If I was focusing on the why, why should I help? Why am I standing here while she lies to my face? Why should I fail and let him take my work and pass? Why?

You see, I've dealt with things that even adults can't bear to handle but what makes me brave is not the fact that I show up to school every day willing to help but the fact that even though I see myself as a nobody...that even though my heart is shattered into pieces by my own flesh and blood and friends, I still manage to gather up the pieces.

Fact is, life isn't just about living happily or living as wealthy as you could, life is about more than that. It's about living with pain and hurt while managing to help those around you. It's about seeing past the hatred and selfishness and managing to live life to the fullest. You see, I've thought about giving up but never have I ever went to the part where I start thinking about how and why because I don't need to. I know that I don't have the guts to do anything about it but I have plans for the future. Plans that involve my career, and family.

Life is about trying to become better, trying to do things for people who are around you and need the help. Life is about everything, and not nothing. If you're living, it's for a reason so don't stop living because you can't handle the truth instead you should live because you finally have the truth.

I hope you got motivated, see you next time and have a nice day.