Discover

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Sitting in my last class of the day I couldn’t help but wonder about the things I had heard just in the span of a day. So many things had happened today and I couldn’t help but feel that I had missed something important standing hidden behind it. All the people close to me, or trying to get close to me had said things along the same lines.

 “Get yourself checked out somewhere. Maybe go down to the counselors’ office, I don’t know! Call me about what happens after school!” Chris had told me before leaving.

“Call me if you need any help! I’m really sorry.” Hannah had offered me.

 “You don’t understand Ashley! We could help you! The last thing we would think is that you’re crazy. We’ve all been through something that left us needing close true friends. We’re here for you!” Tyler had said not long ago wanting to help with all his might.

“Well, maybe she was just trying to help you, like we are! You should talk to her! Pay her a visit after school. I think it would help you a lot! We all want what’s best for you. Think about it! Please.” Megan had told me earlier that day.

And last of all Mrs. Wolfe had told me personally and indirectly that I could always turn to her for help. “Alright then, just remember in this class you can tell us what is bothering you. Whatever it is I promise the class will understand!”

“So as you must have noticed your homerooms were switched up. This is because the school board has decided that every student needs to be placed into a confidential group of students, who they can share ALL their problems with.”

It was only now that I realized what the true meaning was behind all those words. Everyone had wanted me to talk to somebody about what I was going through and try to find people who could explain. Even if none of them knew what my problem was I could tell this was what I had needed to figure out and admit. Whoever was behind all of this wanted me to figure out the fact that I couldn’t keep things bundled up and hidden deep inside of me. Now I just had to figure out who I would talk to.

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The rest of the horribly boring, long and endless periods that day, I wracked my brain for people to talk to. I knew any of the people I had already waved off today were out of the question, Hannah and Chris couldn’t know about it, while my parents had already agreed to ‘explain’ tonight. I wasn’t expecting that to go very well though. The last time they tried we ended up in a five way fight. It was something I didn’t want to relive. That only left me with my brothers, who my parents had called right after my incident. I wasn’t sure about them though. If they wanted to be nice they would explain, but if they didn’t, I would end up as the joke of the house. It wasn’t something that I wanted at all. The two of them would keep this suspended over me for years if it went wrong. I would never forget about it in my life however I would have to take the risk. Not knowing was worse than either figuring out that I was crazy, or getting to know the truth. Then I would at least have some information I could rely on.

My decision gave me the satisfaction that I knew what I would do if I didn’t find out what I needed to. Just the idea that I had a reliable plan calmed me down enough to get me on the bus without the jumpy, impatience that was pounding to get out of me. The answers to my problems that had been causing me this mayor amount of trouble could be just within my reach or a phone call away.

When the bus dropped me off in front of our driveway I couldn’t help but realize that both my parents were already home, staring out the window with nervous expressions onto our street. As soon as they noticed my car they came rushing down to me at a speed I never thought was possible. They were already by my side when I climbed out of the car. My dad patted me on the back and my mother put a hand on my shoulder as they guided me into the house in silence.