you flash before my eyes (ErenxLevi) [completed]

Emotional pain

Eren POV:

As I sat there on my bed, I wondered what my mother could have meant. I couldn't possibly just go up to him and start asking why he acts as he does, if I did, I would just get into another fistfight with him. And I can't possibly go to one of his friends...or maybe I can... with HANGI. I would be able to go to school and be able to sort it out with her.

When my mother walked into the room, I started to wonder what if Levi and I were just accidentally paired up. I don't need someone just to get hurt again or even worse, abused.

Carla's POV:

As I entered Eren's room he had a faraway expression. He seemed to be thinking since he didn't notice me enter his room.

"Are you ok Eren," I said softly. After a few seconds, he came back to reality and he looked down and said in a shaky voice. " I-I just don't want myself or anyone to get hurt." I looked at him stunned to say a word. I slowly lifted his head and put my forehead on his and said " you know you aren't going to get hurt anymore." he drew in breath like the words hurt him far worse than the fights he got into and spoke "what if Levi starts acting like my father, and ex... what if h-he... I would never be able to handle it"

He looked like he was going to burst into tears at any moment so I hugged him. We hugged for a while and when I pulled away, I told him soothingly "Everything will be alright" then I said rather a little angrily "it was my fault that I let your father and ex-boyfriend let you beat up badly"

I was cleaning and putting the bandages on Eren's hand. I always understood why he got into fights, he just doesn't want to get hurt again but he also let out his anger on other people because he was tired of always being weak. While it did make me angry, it also made me sad to think that he is doing this because he is a complete reck inside. please Levi, please tell Eren you love him, you know that you do. And I don't want him to get hurt like before. so why are you trying to hide it? Kuchel has told me so many sweet stories about you when you were younger. Why did you have to change?

Eren's POV:

As my mother went to leave my room I sat there processing what happened tonight. As I was going back to sleep I decided one thing. Until everything works out with Levi. I will not bring any further damage to my mother. I can be strong for her, she already blames herself for everything that I committed wrong. She has suffered too much from my irresponsible decisions.

The only people I can surely rely on are Mika, Armin, Sasha, Connie, Horseface, Historia, Ymir, and hopefully Erwin and Hangi. And I will find a way.

I slowly started to drift to sleep and dream about my plan. "tomorrow will be a busy day for the group..." and went into a soundless sleep.