Eight Letters / Taegyu; Until the End

nine

and you deserve to hear them a thousand times

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the next day brought to me the fear that things would be way beyond awkward. i spent the night at beomgyu's house as per usual and nothing out of the blue happened after the...kisses. but i still had a raging fear within me. 

so when i woke up and noticed that beomgyu was already getting dressed for school i panicked and closed my eyes. pretending to sleep because i needed time to think about what i was going to do.

everytime i imagined confessing in my head it ended with him hating me and never wanting me to see him again. and while i was overjoyed that the outcome was the complete opposite and he liked me as well, i never planned for this to be an option. and i was so fucking nervous. i tried to use his comforter to hide the fact that i was trembling in nervousness.
it's hard to pretend you're sleeping when your body is shaking like an earthquake.

"tae-yah, it's time to get ready for school."

he said sweetly as he came over to the bed and ruffled my bed head. i groaned and rolled over pulling the blanket over my head because even though i was faking being asleep, i didn't have to fake the fact that i really didn't want to get up and go to school.

"don't wanna."

i mumbled from under the blankets and i heard him laugh quietly at the pout in my voice. he always said that he thought i was the cutest brat he had ever seen. and although i hated people seeing my whiny baby self, my heart always flew when he said that.

"i know hyunnie but you need to go to school with me. we don't wanna be late."

he pulled the blanket down to where just my eyes were seen and i attempted to glare at him. that followed with a giggle from the older and me burying myself again.

"taehyun, i know you are extremely lazy and don't wanna get up but we gotta go. believe me when i say i wish we could just skip and hang out together here. but i have a deal,"

i peeked out at him waiting to hear his proposal. he smiled and patted my head so lovingly it felt unreal.

"i know that you like my big pastel hoodie very much. so, if i let you wear it, will you get up and get ready?"

he raised his eyebrows with a smirk. as much as i hated to admit it, he was right. i had always loved his stupid oversized dinosaur hoodie so much. i had countlessly begged him to let me wear it ever since he got it. so i sighed and nodded with a small grin and he smiled brightly. pulling the blankets off and lifting me up to stand on the cold wood floor with my socked feet.

"why can't we just stay here? our parents are gone, they won't know."

i pouted in hopes that it would work in my favor. but sadly it didn't.

"ba- i mean- i- i'm sorry."

he panicked as my face glowed red in flames of embarrassment. it wasn't because i hated it like he probably assumed as he nervously apologized. i was burning up because i liked it. i didn't expect it and that made it even better. i wanted to hear him call me that at every moment of every day if that were possible.

he hid his face in his hands and i could tell he was extremely embarrassed because he was always nervous that people would judge him by the nicknames he gave to them. this one must have definitely hit a button somewhere.

i moved closer and removed his hands from his face. i held his hands tightly and smiled at him, still blushing like some anime girl.

"i-i'm sorry that was probably really really weird. sorry if if i made you uncomfortable it just f-felt r-right. it felt-"

"natural."

he finally met eyes with me and we both smiled this time.

"please say it again."

beomgyu blushed and smiled proudly. he closed the small distance with only about half a centimeter to spare. i felt his uneven breathing against my face. his fingers nervously running up and down the sides of my hands.

but a wave of confidence hit him as he worked up the nerve to do what he had wanted to now that he had the confirmation he needed. he let go of my hands and put his around my hips. he pulled me as close as possible with space to let our faces have slight distance.

"baby, i love you."

he kissed me and i gratefully returned it. it was short and gentle but so so sweet and full of pure love. pure happiness.

"i love you m-more."

he smiled and pulled me into a deep hug as we stood there, him completely ready to leave the house at any moment. and me still in a t-shirt and shorts.

"now i have an even better reason to wear your hoodie."

i felt him loosen the hug and pull back so he could look at my face. he was so attentive when i talked to him because he knew that i was shy. he knew i had a hard time opening up, sharing my thoughts, my feelings. so when i said anything, he looked at me like he was invested in the most interesting words that could ever come out of the mouth of another person.

he tilted his head like a confused puppy in question while he waited for me to finish what i had begun to tell him. i was nervous. i felt so cheesy. but i knew that he would smile so wide and be so pleased that it was worth a short spout of embarrassment.

"it smells like my favorite person in the world. the person that i love. it smells like you. it will remind me of you when i'm in class. the person who calls me baby."

i cringed but managed a goofy looking expression that made him laugh so genuinely. it was the little things that he said were his favorite things to bring him happiness.

"cheesy."

we hugged again for a moment after we giggled and he playfully had hit my chest. 

"only for you."

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