Between Us

I was just

Jennie pov

" seriously? Your been looking at my belly for ages now." I shove Lisa cause she's starting to irritate me.

" Why it's not moving, it's supposed to move, right?"

" Two months? Arghh! Why are you here anyway, you supposed to go to your room, we had class tomorrow!"

" I want to sleep here, I like to be closer to her."

" Aish! And how did you know that it's a her?!" I yelled at her! " Get out on my room Lisa or I will sleep in yours!"

" Ok, ok, ok! Wow you had to be this mean and grumpy?!" Lisa stand but hold my belly " don't be like your mommy baby..."

"Out!" I raise a pillow and act that I'm going to throw to her but she run towards the door. " Goodnight baby, please don't move while I'm not here." She chuckled" goodnight hot mama, love you" she said as she closes the door.  I rolled my eyes, since we came back Lisa was very protective and she's been extra clingy towards me that makes me feel annoyed all the time. There were a times that I was crying because of my annoyance. I don't know if it's the pregnancy but I really can't stand Lisa when she's around me. She irritates me, I hate the way she smile, I hate her smells, her voice, I don't want her near me but I do feel the same When she's not around, I missed her, I want to hear her laugh, I want to look at her cute face, I feel emotional when she's not at my side. Sehun said maybe I was craving for Lisa too much and my child might look like her. It doesn't bother me though, Lisa is a visual anyone could envy but if there's one thing I want my child that will inherit from Lisa, was her loving personality. I admit I still don't know if I can make it through this pregnancy situation but as long as Lisa's here with me I know me and my baby will be safe. There's were a times that I try to contact Kai but he always refuses to answer me and I find myself crying not because it hurts but because of the disappointment for myself. I Couldn't hate Kai for what happened cause it's me who always initiates the deeds. It's not that I'm really was totally inlove with him, actually I am not sure if I really love him. All I know is when I'm with him I forget about my confusion regarding about what I feel for Lisa. Yeah, Lisa my best friend since birth. Lisa and I were know each other since we can't remember, our parents said that the first word that we speak weren't mama or dada but it was nini for Lisa and lili for me. Lisa and I were laughing about the story but we believe it. Lisa and I were inseparable since we were young. Our parents were the best of friends too that's why we are always together. When her parents has to go business travel Lisa were staying at our house and same goes with me. Even I was months older than her Lisa were the one who's been the protector, her patience towards me were unbeatable, she's always happy, she's loving, intelligent, talented and she's the most positive person I ever met. I was the contrary of Lisa, I was rude, careless, and people first impression towards me were snob and I had this I don't want you look always, I don't have talent nor I am not bright, my grade were average and if Lisa won't help me with my study's I'm pretty sure I will fail. Lisa was always at my side to help me with everything, and I am at hers because nobody can stand me, just her. Well it's the thruth, that's one of the reason why I had few friends. Oh well, I got Lisa why do I need more. During high school, the sister thingy between me and Lisa were suddenly change, I don't know to her but it was to me. I was more protective to her because puberty hit Lisa so damn good, she became this darling of the crowd cause everyone wants her. At first I thought I was just afraid, you know, I only got her. but eventually I understand that i wasn't just afraid but a jealousy, I want her to just want me, only me but Lisa felt different, Lisa stay at the zone that we are sisters, best friend. She can't want me more than that and I figured it out when she start dating this jungkok guy she met during a quiz bee she participated. I was so devastated and from that moment I started to be like this out going and easy person. I date who ever want to date me, been changing partners more often just to forget about this feeling I had for her or maybe because I wanted her attention and I win in that part cause Lisa and jungkok never happened, she's been busy checking on me. High school, Lisa stayed single because of me and me? I lost count of my flings during highschool just to make Lisa stay single. Lisa were not happy about my change but she's being supportive, she always tell me that know my limitations, oh ghad if she only knew I wasn't a virgin anymore because of her. I go with this guy and get drunk because Lisa were having a date with jungkok that time, it's not actually a date, that's the time when Lisa turn down his love because Lisa telling him that her fucos were in study and into a rebel called Jennie. Arghh! I wanted to kill myself when she's telling me that I need to be proper and we need to make our parents proud. After that I try to follow Lisa's advice, and we graduated highschool thanks to her. First day in college we are both excited, we were holding hands walking at the campus when Lisa suddenly stop and let go of my hand. I turn to look at her, she's looking towards someone, and the way she look at him breaks my heart.  Never see Lisa look at me that way. Then the guy approach us with his guy friends. They introduced them selves. They were seniors and they offer help to familiarise the campus. Sehun never leave Lisa's side and that's why Kai attention were in me. Kai and I happened a few weeks after our first meeting. Lisa never said a word about me and Kai together cause she always bubbling about Sehun. It hurts but I had to accept the fact. I was just a best friend to her.