Between Us

I was just

Lisa pov

I stay standing Infront Jennie's door, I really wanted to stay always at her side but Jennie keep on pushing me away. She get irritated of my presence and she's easily annoyed in me. Sehun tell that it's about the pregnancy, I guess and hope he's right. I don't know what happened between me and Jennie,  when we were younger we are each other world, mine rotates just for her and I can feel hers were for me too. I mean, if there's 24 hours a day, 9 hours is the longest time were not together and that's was on our bedtime sleep, sometimes it didn't happened cause we were crying that we want to sleep next to each other. That makes me hate highschool, highschool change us. She change alot, she become this easy girl that everybody gossip about. She changes boyfriends and girlfriends like she was changing a baby's diaper. She lost focus on her study's, goals and most especially me. it hurts that she changed like this all new person who I don't even know but what really hurt me the most is I think it was my fault. I don't want to be full of myself but I can feel the changes cost by me hooking up with this guy who really likes me. Jungkok, he was a stunner. A beautiful man. Intelligent. Gentle and have a good manners. Every woman will envy me if jongkok will be my boyfriend. Do I want to be his girlfriend? No! Don't get me wrong, I am interested in him but an interest doesn't convince me to enter a relationship. I just pushed by some of my friends to go to a date with him and yeah, I enjoyed his company so when he ask me again I said yes and our meet ups goes on. That's the time I noticed Jennie's changes, I know Jennie my whole life and she's so dependent on me, of course she will cause I always been at her side always. She had few friends because she's in so particular in choosing who she will be friends to cause she's always comparing them to me. Once you don't have match with my personality you said goodbye to the chance to be Jennie's friend. I know I shouldn't tolerate this but Jennie was the most important person in my life and I can't just watch her change at all, I turn down jungkok feelings and back my focus to my study's and Jennie. Thank god when I stop seeing the guy Jennie somehow back to her old self. She still dates but she listened once I told to ditch the person cause I don't like them for her. I can say we were back to the way we are but why I feel awkwardness towards her and her being so distant. I can feel the difference. Maybe because we are getting older? Or she doesn't trust me anymore? Or she just preoccupied of hunting her mate? I don't understand. I was just thankful that she complying when it comes to our study and we graduated high school without any problems. Enrolling to college was so easy, we plan and pick what corse we take and what school we will enter when we were just a little kid and a im glad that were so consistent in that. One day I was walking back to our condo unit from buying some school supplies and then accidentally someone bump on me. I fall in to the ground and a handsome guy run towards me and help me get up then he run after the person who bump me and jump on him giving him a forceful punch which make the other guy fall unconscious. An old lady and a police men then approach them and I figured that it was a snatchers and the handsome guy was a hero. I was standing there looking at the hero who happened to be had a perfect looks and built, mesmerized by his bravery. Few moments later I realized I was alone at the premises so I start to walk again back home. After that incident that person never leave my thoughts, he's so perfect. He's so perfect for....

Jennie. That kind of men I wanted for her, he deserves that kind of person, who is perfectly beautiful inside and out, can protect her. She deserves someone like that. I wish I can met the guy again cause I will be happy to introduce him to my best friend.

First day of college I was stunned again seeing the guy I was wanting for Jennie, I was so surprised that he was walking towards us wearing that gentle smile. God is so good that he's hearing all my prayers. At least now I can say Jennie will find her match, a person she deserves.....

But....

He was interested in me... It was really an awkward moment when sehun show interest to me rather than Jennie, I feel guilty everytime he giving me too much attention rather the person I wanted for him to be with. Then I noticed Jennie and Kai was spending so much time together, Kai was sehun friend but the two of them was really the opposite that's why I don't like him. He's arrogant and proud. When Jennie tell me that Kai is her boyfriend I was so disappointed, they were been known each other for weeks and I think Kai weren't good for her, of course I didn't say that to her face.

Flashback

" Were are you going?" Jennie ask me when I was so dress up and about to go out.

" Sehun invited me to go dinner with him."

" Oh really? Well enjoy. Kai and I will go out too later."

" Enjoy too but don't be late, lately your coming home so late."

" It's okay lis, my boyfriend will take good care of me"

" Ooowwww.. your boyfriend...."

" Yeah, were official now. You and Sehun?"

" Ow no no no.. he's not courting Jen, this was a friendly night out."

" Yeah right, well you go now, don't let your imaginary boyfriend wait too long." And she turn her hills against me and walk away.

End of flashback

Since then Jennie were back to this go with the flow attitude, what make it worst now is Kai were the same. I was so hopeless that I can't stop her and being hopeless I feel I need someone to hold on that's why I really appreciate and accepted Sehun feelings for me. Well who could not accept him, he's so perfect. Time flies and the semester was over, during the break Sehun and I were spend much time together and I find myself falling for him, he's very attentive and he's giving all his time for me. Jennie in the other hand went a vocation with Kai, her parents allow her cause she told them that it was a school stuff and I feel angry about her lying. We didn't talk for the rest of the break and now second semester was about to finish and here we are, me with Sehun and her being pregnant with her runaway bastard boyfriend! Seeing her everyday with this situation breaks my heart but in the same time I feel relieved and happy cause she become this clingy and needy Jennie again. I promise her I will be with her all through out. Only Sehun knows what happened, he promised he will support us and help me being thier to Jennie but I told him that we got this. I don't want to involve him. I can't understand myself either but I only want Jennie and the baby for myself. Is it normal? For wanting them even though i was just the best friend?