Finding Him // c.d SEQUEL TO COME BACK

Epilouge

Approximately one month later.

I sat at her grave with tears in my eyes.

"Hey Alex," I say as my voice cracks, "it's been a month now. And I've been doing a lot of cool things. Nash and I are filming a new movie and I know you would be proud of me because you always supported me."

I adjust my position and take a deep breath. "Ryan was eating goldfish today and I started crying because it was the last thing you ate. Every little thing reminds me of you. Brown hair, pancakes, the beach, and so much more."

I look around and see the beautiful sunset, "Kenzie doesn't like to sleep in your house by herself, so she sleeps with JJ every night. They're really cute. Whenever I see them it reminds me of us."

"I have to put on a brave face everyday but everyone sees right through me, besides the fans. They know what happened and they've been really supportive."

I sigh and play with the bracelet Alex gave Ryan. "Ryan gave me your bracelet. I said no but he insisted that I have and he tied it to my wrist when I was sleeping. He said you would want me too have it."

"The guys are taking this whole thing pretty hard too, Gilinsky cried for a couple days straight. Matt cries everyday, but tries not to show it. I keep thinking it's better for you. Your probably with Amy and Sky and your dad and that's great."

"I just miss you more than I've missed anyone, ever. I keep telling myself not to cry, but it's so hard ya know." I say with tears streaming down my face.

"I try not to cry a lot, but sometimes I just have to. I know your still here with me but I can't kiss your or hug your or annoy the crap outta you like I use to," I laugh through the tears.

"And it just fucking sucks. So much. But your in a better place now. I know you are. Away from all the hate and pain." I say and tell myself to believe the things I'm saying but I just can't. I know the safest place she could be was in my arms and with me.

"It's crazy how I found the love of my life when I was so young, and I still am. And I know one day I'll see you again and I'll hug you like I've never hugged anyone before."

"Gilinsky told me that life goes on and I've come to believe that. Life has continued and my fan base has continued to grow," I say and wipe my face.

"Maybe Gilinsky is right. Ya life goes on, but let me tell you one thing, it fucking sucks without you."

THE END

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