Mates with Alpha Dylan

Chapter 11

Sam's POV

After Dylan and I accepted each other, which made me very happy, Dr. Roberts came in and cleared me. For some reason I thought that he was going to reject me. Why? Because I'm scared that I'll lose him.

Every person I've cared about so far has either been taken from me or betrayed me. I know that he's had other partners which makes me a little sad, but I shouldn't really be surprised because he's pretty damn sexy.

I guess since I've been saving myself for him, I was expecting him to do the same.

Stupid right?

Yeah I know.

I kind of set myself up for it though, because I always put my expectations on a pedestal and keep them there until the disappointment slaps me right across the face. That's what I hate most about myself, well other than overthinking when I'm alone for too long.

And what if I'm not good enough for him, you know? What if he loses interest in me due to my inexperience? I haven't done anything with a guy because I've been waiting for him. He's the first guy to ever hold my hand, other than my dad but that doesn't really count, he'll be my first kiss, my first boyfriend and mate, my first time. My first and only everything, but sadly that doesn't go for him as well.

The important thing is that I found him and I don't plan on letting go. I'm just hoping and praying in my mind that he feels the same way. I mean I'm pretty sure he does, and it's just me overanalyzing the situation as usual.

I was brought back to reality by someone shaking my shoulders. By the shocks of electricity that spread through my body I knew it was Dylan. He was speaking, but I couldn't hear a thing.

My mind was working, but my body wasn't.

Everything was suddenly just one big blur, and I didn't know how to stop it. Too many thoughts were scrambling through my head at once.

My head is killing me.

It's throbbing uncontrollably.

And this pain is unbearable.

Dylan is screaming something at me but it sounds like it's far away.

Echoes.

That's what I hear.

Every move being made seems to be going in slow motion.

Suddenly I'm seeing my life flash right before my eyes,

finding my moms body,

the depression,

holding my dad in his office,

leaving to the meeting,

this similar feeling of being stuck in time,

losing everyone I've ever loved,

holding my dad as he took his last breath,

the pain,

meeting Beau,

living with the guys,

finding out the truth,

the betrayal,

the second attack,

the cell,

my dream,

my parents,

waking up and finding Dylan,

every memory since my moms death,

all hitting me at the same time.