All I Want (Remus Lupin/reader)

chapter five

It had been nearly a month since Y/N had woken up in Remus's arms. They had not mentioned or spoken of it. There was nothing to say. In a time of grief for Y/N, Lupin had comforted her. That was all it was. Or that's what it seemed to be to him. You honestly couldn't tell how he felt. He was good at hiding his emotions when he wanted to. But so were you.

The full moon had passed and that day Lupin left. He came back the next night with a few more scratches but other than that he was fine. He didn't mention where he had gone or what had happened.

Days passed quickly and in a blur. You had fallen into a routine at the cottage. You woke up, ate breakfast, read in the living room with Lupin, take a nap, play chess, eat dinner, then go to bed.

No one came near the cottage. The only person you had seen since you left the Burrow was Lupin. You couldn't help but feel a little lonely. Ever since that night he had almost pushed you away or closed you off.

It was at this time in the month that the full moon once again approached. You noticed that Lupin slept longer, yet still had bags under his eyes.

There was an unspoken tension between the two of you. Whether or not Lupin felt it you could not tell. When you were together there was friendly chat or comfortable silence. Although you weren't speaking of that night you still felt like it hung overhead.

Unlike previously, Remus didn't flirt anymore, at least it was what you thought was flirting. Maybe he simply didn't feel anything for you and didn't want to hurt your feelings by leading you on. It was hard to tell how he felt about you.

It was the day after the full moon. Lupin had left after dinner last night and said he would be back sometime today. As expected, he wasn't in the living room when you got up to make breakfast. You stuck to your routine as normal, eating breakfast, reading, napping, lunch, more reading, then making supper for yourself as Lupin had not yet returned.

As you were eating you heard a quick knock and Remus walked in. "Sorry I'm late. I decided to stop by the Burrow. Arthur said the Death Eaters have left your home. If you would like, we could go by tomorrow and you can collect your personal belongings. I imagine the Ministry will be clearing everything out because you haven't come forward to claim the house," Lupin explained.

That was what you had expected. You were the rightful owner of the home since your parents died but you couldn't sign that you accepted it because that meant going to the Ministry. That was simply something you could not do.

"We can leave in the morning. Thank you for telling me," you said curtly. You didn't mean to have a tinge of rudeness when you spoke. You were upset at everything that was going on. Your parents didn't deserve to die, Harry, Hermione, and Ron shouldn't have to put their lives at risk, and Lupin shouldn't shut you out. The ladder was a far less pressing matter but it still bugged you.

Awaking the next day you felt anxious. You were going to your home, the place you had spent so much time with your parents, the place where they died. The emotions swelled up inside you, the feelings of grief coming back over you. You had to be strong for them, they would have wanted you to be. You had to turn your guilt and anger into passion, a passion to avenge them. You pulled yourself together with a new found sense of purpose and went to the living room.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

I know this chapter is shorter than all the previous ones. It's basically filler and an explanation of the time jump. I might have a few of these types of chapters sprinkled in throughout when something is about to happen and I don't want to have a big event  (not saying what's coming is huge), right after another. I think smaller chapters in-between bigger ones will keep me from getting burnt out and also make the story flow a little better. As always, ENJOY and I love you guys!  Tell me how you feel about the shorter chapters and anything you want to see later on in the story!