All I Want (Remus Lupin/reader)

chapter twelve

You opened your eyes and let go of Dobby's hand. As soon as Luna and Dean had as well, Dobby Disapperated. Luna had wrapped an arm around Mr. Ollivander's side to keep him upright. You looked around, Bill and Fleur's cottage was nice, it was right on a cliff overlooking the sea. It was better than what you and Remus had been living in.

You, Dean, Luna, and Mr. Ollivander all began to walk towards the door, being met halfway by Bill. "Are you alright? What's going on?" he directed towards you.

"Harry, Ron, and Hermione are at Malfoy Manor. We all got captured. Dobby just went back to get them. They should be here soon. I think we need to get Mr. Ollivander inside though, he isn't doing well."

Bill nodded and slung his arm around Mr. Ollivander, supporting his weight, and walking him inside. You stepped into the cottage and were immediately swept up in someone's arms. "Remus?" He was here. He was okay. And he was holding you.

"Y/N, I thought I'd lost you. I'm so sorry I should have done something. Are you okay? Did they do something to you?" He asked, genuine concern in his eyes. He had pulled back slightly, but his arms were still around your waist. "No, I'm okay. I thought they killed you. I'm- I'm so glad you're here and safe."

He didn't respond but instead looked into your eyes. Was it longing you saw? You decided to go for it. You gathered up all your confidence and said, "Remus, I love you." For a moment he didn't do anything but a second later he put his hand on your cheek and slowly pressed his lips against yours. It felt like electricity ran through your body. The kiss didn't last but a few seconds but it left you absolutely breathless. You didn't care that everyone was watching.

Remus pulled back, eyes searching yours. "Y/N, I love you too." He caressed your cheek and smiled. You smiled back. This was the happiest you had felt in a long time. It felt right to be in his arms, for your faces to be inches from one another. Someone coughed, which brought you both out of the little bubble you had created. "That was lovely," Luna said.

You looked down at the ground, just now feeling all the eyes on you and Remus. You went into the sitting room, where everyone had gathered. Fleur looked a bit overwhelmed at the amount of guests she had. No one spoke, everyone was waiting for Dobby to return. After a few minutes, there was a CRACK! from outside.

When all of you were outside you saw Harry, Ron, Hermione, Dobby, and Griphook. But something was wrong. Harry was sitting on the ground holding Dobby. Rushing over to the scene, you saw that Dobby had a knife in him. He was bleeding too much for it to be stopped. Harry shook his head and begged Dobby to stay with him. Bill ushered everyone inside so he could speak to Harry alone. At this point, Dobby was gone.

Heading back inside you saw Hermione. "Are you two alright? Hermione... I heard you screaming. What was going on?" Ron motioned to the Gryffindor sword, "We had to take that back. We need it." Hermione seemed to be fine, albeit very spooked. Remus sat with you on the couch. Neither of you spoke but his presence comforted you. So many bad things were happening. But Remus was a light in the dark. You held his hand, which Hermione and Ron eyed suspiciously. She would definitely ask about that later.

After hours, Harry came back inside from digging the grave for the elf. You all went outside when he was finished and spoke a few kind words about Dobby. Hermione and Ron had stayed back to speak with Harry though. They said they would fill you in later. Although you wanted to be in the middle of the action, you also wanted to stay with Remus.

After dinner, Hermione pulled you aside. You assumed she would ask about Lupin. And you were right. "Y/N is there something going on between you and Lupin? It's quite obvious something's going on. Are you two together?" Hermione asked.

"I- Well, I love him. And he said he loves me. But we aren't together. We haven't talked about that." What would Lupin think about being in a relationship with you? You'd been in a relationship before, but nothing serious.

"Oh Y/N... You love him," Hermione beamed.

"Yeah... What about you and Ron?" you giggled.

"What about us?" Hermione raised her eyebrows.

"Oh Hermione..." you sighed. "He obviously likes you!"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

He laughed but decided to leave her alone about it. The time had come to make sleeping arrangements. Fleur said they were short one bed so somebody would have to share. To your surprise, Lupin asked if you would share with him and you agreed. After changing into your pajamas, you slipped into bed next to Remus. To your delight, he had gathered up all your belongings from the tent and brought them here. He had packed up immediately after he escaped Greyback and left. You both laid there for a minute before you decided to ask him about your relationship. "Remus?"

He turned to look at you, "Yes?"

You hesitated, "Do you... Do you want to be with me?"

There were several beats of silence. You started feeling queasy, unsure of what he was going to say. You wanted to be with him. But what if he didn't want to be with you?

"Y/N, I- I can't support you. I'm a monster. I do love you but... I can't get a job, I can't have kids, I could never put you in danger like that." He wasn't looking at you anymore. You felt like your heart was being squeezed.

"Remus, we can find a way. I can get a job. It doesn't matter to me. I want to be with you. Even if you can't have kids or don't want them. It's okay. I'll be happy as long as I'm with you. And you aren't a monster. You are so kind, and caring. You are anything but a monster." You reached over and stroked his hair. His eyes finally met yours and you could sense his defenses falling.

"Why would you want me? You are young and beautiful and strong. You have your whole life ahead of you. I don't want to be a hindrance."

"Remus all I want is you. You are everything to me and I love you. You could never be a hindrance," you assured.

He nearly teared up. You could tell that he was really thinking about it. He sighed and smiled at you, "Okay. We can give it a try. But if you aren't happy..." he began, but you cut him off, pressing your lips to his. You wanted to show him that you were happy, and always would be if you were with him. He kissed you back with as much fervor as you had shown him.

It lasted only a few seconds but it left you breathless. When you pulled apart Remus scooped you up in his arms and held you until you both fell asleep.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

FINALLY!!!!!! WHAT WE'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR!! I hope you guys enjoyed that :) Tell me if there's something you'd like to see or something I can do better! Love you guys!