All I Want (Remus Lupin/reader)

chapter nineteen

A week after Voldemort's demise at Hogwarts, you and Remus were settling into what was once your parents' home.

After the events that took place, Kingsley was declared temporary Minister of Magic and helped you reclaim ownership of your childhood home. You were beyond grateful for Kinsley's help, seeing as he was extremely busy and he still managed to make time for your wishes.

You insisted that Remus stay with you in the three bedroom house. You didn't want to stay by yourself and Remus didn't exactly have anywhere to go. Even if he did have somewhere to go, you still would have insisted. With Voldemort dead, and Death Eaters being captured, things would finally be peaceful and you could enjoy your time with Remus.

After a long day of cleaning and moving into your parents' old bedroom, you collapsed onto the bed.

"Tired, darling?" Remus asked, laying down beside you.

You sighed contently, "A little worn out, yes, but I'm glad I get to be with you." You leaned over and kissed his nose, receiving a chuckle in return.

"I'm glad to be with you too," he paused. "I'll be right back, don't go anywhere." He walked out of the room with a sneaky smirk and returned with a bottle of wine and two glasses.

"I just remembered that we weren't able to celebrate your birthday due to all this chaos," he explained, pouring the rich, red liquid into your glasses. He was right, you turned 20 in February. But you weren't the only one with a birthday, Remus turned 38 in March. Although there was a significant age gap between you two, you couldn't tell with the way you treated each other. You spoke as equals and loved one another as equals.

"Remus, your birthday passed as well. We're celebrating multiple things tonight." You took the cup and took a generous drink of it, savoring the flavor as it traveled down your throat. You raised your glass and spoke again, "To you, my love, and to our new life together."

"And to you, my dear." Remus clinked his glass against yours and leaned in for a kiss before drinking. Remus always gave you amazing kisses, ones that made you feel special.

You were absolutely content. Nothing could be more perfect. You were here, safe, with Remus. As you drained your drink, you felt all your worries melt away. Things would turn out okay after all. The past few months didn't go as you expected, but the end result was worth every minute of the struggle.

You laid in bed, drinking your wine until both of your glasses were empty. The alcohol made you feel warm and you began to loosen up a bit. After depositing your drinks in the sink, you returned to yours and Remus's bedroom.

You warmed even more when you saw Remus, who had unbuttoned his shirt, exposing his chest. You had the feeling he knew exactly what he was doing when he smirked at you. You returned to his side and placed your hand upon his chest, stroking it lightly as he watched. Your hand drifted up to his face, lightly tracing a path from his chest to his jaw.

"Remus..." you whispered. You had not had sex with Remus yet. There was never a good moment. Your relationship began at Shell Cottage, which was filled to the brim with people and not to mention, the walls were thin. But now, you were alone, no one could interrupt you.

Remus placed his hands on your waist and pulled you on top of him, straddling his lap. You cupped his face as you kissed, opening your mouth to let Remus's tongue slip in. His hands remained planted on your waist, keeping you flush against his body as the kissing intensified.

Remus shrugged his shirt off his shoulders, letting your hands have contact with more bare skin. You didn't think it was fair that he was the only one to shed clothing, so you pulled back to unbutton your blouse, tossing it to the floor.

Remus chuckled at your idea of being fair, but he didn't mind one bit. His palms rested on the small of your back as he kissed down your neck, biting lightly at the sensitive skin. The breath you let out was almost ragged, leaving your mouth unevenly. Remus smiled against your skin, making his way to your shoulders, peppering kisses along the way. You tilted your back slightly as your fingers combed through Remus's hair.

Remus moved from your shoulders to the valley in between your boobs before lifting his head back up to your face, kissing you once more.

"Y/N, I want to make love to you," he said softly. His eyes looked into yours with a softness that you had grown to love so dearly.

"I want you Remus," you responded, reassuring him that this was what you wanted. You had no doubt that Remus was yours. You loved all of him, even the parts that he disliked. To you, everything about him was beautiful.

Remus flipped you onto your back, his body between your legs. He leaned over you and brushed soft kisses down your stomach, stopping where your pants were. He leaned back, unbuttoning them and sliding them down your legs. He went back down, kissing your inner thigh before he removed his own pants.

The sight of the tent in Remus's boxers turned you on even more than you already were. Remus caught you staring and chuckled. He pressed a kiss to your lips and ran his finger tips along your panties, sending shivers through your body. He hooked them onto his fingers and pulled them down. He slowly pressed a finger into your warmth, coaxing a moan to escape your mouth.

He added another finger and curled them, making you feel more pleasure than ever before. He removed his fingers after a few more strokes and took off his underwear, letting them hit the floor next to the bed. He looked at you, asking if you were ready. You nodded and he inserted himself slowly into you.

Your eyes fluttered shut as Remus took in a sharp breath at the crook of your neck. He moved in and out at a slow pace, letting you get used to the feeling before the pace intensified. As he thrust in and out of you he groaned into your neck, causing you to let out a moan as well.

Every thrust pushed you closer to your breaking point and as Remus began to push in harder than ever you felt yourself come apart and release. Your orgasm made you let out the loudest moan yet and your nails dug into Remus's back. Your moan coaxed Remus as well, for he came not too long after you.

As you both came down from your high, Remus rolled over to lay next to you. He pulled the sheets over your naked bodies. You turned over to lay your head on his chest and he began to stroke your hair, which was messier than it was an hour ago. He traced small circles on Remus's chest as you listened to his heart beating. A comfortable silence was cast over you.

Remus was the one to break the silence. "Y/N, if you were to get pregnant I want you to know I'll stay with you. I'll protect our child and take care of you. I'll love the child with as much fervor as I love you."

His declaration brought you to tears. Remus wasn't shy about voicing his issues with having a child. He told you that he wouldn't be able to live with himself if the child turned out like him. You assured him that you would love the child either way but he was still unsure at the time. He had overcome his problems because of you. He knew you wanted a kid, even if you told him it was okay that he wasn't sure on the subject yet.

"Remus, I love you," you whispered.

"I love you too darling."

AUTHOR'S NOTE

I enjoyed writing this episode. Not because of the smut but I think it shows their relationship really well. You see how much they have progressed. I love you guys so tell me what you think! Check out my Tumblr which is professorrw for updates and one-shots for Harry Potter, Barley Lightfoot, and Marvel! I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter!