𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝔹𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨 [5] || bellamy b. series

Chapter 8

While Clarke, Niylah and I rushed to look for Madi, I stopped. Clarke turned around, stopped as well and tried to catch her breath. 'We don't have time to sit around, if Gaia inserts the flame were screwed.'

'No, I need to look for Octavia.'

'Okay, go. We'll go stop Bellamy and Gaia.' Niylah said.

Without second guessing, I quickly ran the other way. By guessing where she was at, I was sure Jackson and Indra kept her somewhere comfortable. After all, her brother put her in a coma purposefully.

Reaching the room, I stormed into Octavia lying on a bed. Indra stood next to her, watching over her as she was still unconscious. 'Octavia!'

'Y/N, where were you?' Indra asked.

'Bellamy drugged me and locked me up with Clarke. Indra, are you in on this with him?'

'No, I would never do anything to harm Octavia. I've eventually figured out he did this to her.' Indra's face flushed with guilt, 'Jackson eventually found out and I had to take him out.'

I crossed my arms, 'Hm. I knew it, you were behind killing Cooper as well. Why are you on their side? Don't you want Wonkru to survive?'

'Surrendering is helping Wonkru, why don't you see that? If we declare war on the only survival place on Earth, it's going to be destroyed. All of this for what? Pride?' Indra clenched her fist, stepping closer towards me.

'Glad to know where you stand, Indra.' Octavia sat up on the bed, pulling wires off of herself. 'Siding with a traitor that nearly killed me.'

'Gaia is probably putting the flames into Madi as we speak, we have to hurry. Clarke already went to look for her.'

Octavia hopped off the bed, 'I'm ashamed of you Indra.'

'And I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of both of you and what you two have become. I blame myself for all of this and I don't want to make the same mistake.'

'You and all the other adults watched while we had to sacrifice everything!' Octavia wheezed as her body was still trying to recover from Monty's algae. 'You're a coward, just like everyone else.'

Octavia took a deep breath, then looked at me. 'Y/N, lets go.'

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There was a herd of guards surrounding the area as Octavia and I finally reached the building. Squeezing through them, I then saw a little girl laying on the table unconscious as Clarke hovered over her. 'Clarke?'

'They've already put the flame in her. I was too late.' She said as she caressed Madi's cheeks. 'I can't pull it out of her either. It can damage her brain and she may never wake up. I can't let that happen to her.'

In the corner of my eye, I saw Bellamy starring at me. Being so busy worrying about Octavia and looking for Clarke with her kid, I totally forgot about him.

Our eyes met, he looked at me with hateful eyes. Bellamy never looked at me that way before. It hurt my heart to see him glare at me as if I was his enemy, as someone he didn't love at all.

Even after he poisoned my friend, drugging me and locking me up, I still can't hate him. I still couldn't fall out of love but I guess that wasn't the case with him. After betraying Wonkru, I now have to see the one person I truly loved possibly die.

'Arrest the traitors.' Octavia shouted.

I pulled my hand out, stopping the guards from going near Bellamy. 'No, I got him.'

The guards nodded and continued to arrest Gaia while I cuffed Bellamy with his hands behind his back. Grabbing onto him, we walked toward the bunker. 'Why did you do something as stupid as this Blake?'

'That's funny coming from you.'

'I can't believe you-' All I can think about was him sitting on top of me, covering the rag on my face as he drugged me. I couldn't say it didn't scar me but seeing Bellamy like that had an affect on me. 'You drugged me.'

'You've done worst to your people. Don't act like this is all brand new.' His tone of voice was scary, scarier than the days when he sided with Pike.

'I'm sorry I tried to protect my family!' I didn't know what got over me, the shouting came out of nowhere. Maybe perhaps I knew where it came from; it was all the anger, fear and sadness I buried deep down for six years.

Bellamy eyed me, looking down at me. 'You kill, slaughter your own people. That's not protecting.'

'You have no right to tell me how to protect my people. We're doing everything to keep Wonkru together.'

'Is that what you tell yourself to help you sleep at night, Skafaiya?' He rolled his eyes and chuckled. 'At least I had the decency to only go after our enemy. Pike and I didn't kill our own. Never.'

'You're my boyfriend and you drugged me!' I pushed Bellamy on his chest. 'You didn't attack your people but you hurt me! You poisoned your own sister.'

He raised his eyebrows, 'If Monty didn't limit my Algae I would've have poisoned you too instead of just Octavia.'

'You-you don't mean that.' My heart immediately started thumping really fast. Faster than when I first killed a human, even faster than when I had my first kiss. This feeling was different and I felt like my world was falling apart.

Bellamy took a deep breath and paused for a little bit, watching me as I struggled to hold in my tears. All the years of hell and I've never been this close to shedding a tear.

'I somewhat get why Octavia is doing what she's doing. She went from being the girl under the floor to being a leader to a clan of 1200 people. Maybe all the pressure got her power hungry. I don't agree with what she's doing at all but I see why she's struggling.'

'You Reyes?' He bit his lips, 'You've lead us through tough times, fought a war we'd thought we've never come out of. You sacrificed yourself for us multiple times and damn it you're the strongest person I've ever met. One of a million reasons why I love you.'

'How do you go from that to being this? This demon that's slowly killing every single people you've sacrificed your life for. Not only you, everyone that died along the way too. Imagine Finn, Jasper, Lincoln and all the other people that died seeing you right now. They wouldn't even recognize you. You haven't even seen your sister yet and I don't know if I want Raven to see you like this.'

I starred into the distance, thinking of all the bad I've done while I was down there. I started imagining Finn watching me from behind the fence as I execute the warriors of Wonkru.

What was worst was that after all of this, I've hurt Bellamy. All the community we help built and keeping people alive, I ruined everything instantly. I let him down and while he was in space trying to be good, I was down here doing the worst human could ever do.

It didn't matter how the Dark Year started, I was still a part of it and I thought I didn't have a choice. We could've went the other path but I chose to be weak. I was okay with everything that happened during that time.

As a leader, I could've stepped up and helped Octavia and not drown her with me. Despite all the adults in Wonkru, I should've known better than to trust them. I've been down on Earth and survived without them, we could've survive the bunker easily too.

The sound of broken branches startled me as two guards approached us, asking if we were doing alright. Trying to act normal, I readjusted myself and blinked to make sure tears weren't coming out. 'Yes, we're okay.'

'Let us know if you need anything.'

'Actually-' Bellamy called for the guards, 'Can you take me instead? Reyes and I are done talking.'

One of the guard nodded, gripping onto Bellamy's cuff and walked away. The other trailed from behind, following them down to the cell in the bunker.

I stood there, watching Bellamy as if he was going to turn around and give me a smile.

It pained me to see him walk away because this time it was different. Bellamy turned away as if he was leaving my life for good. Perhaps that would be better for him. He would be better off without me anyways.