Clay started at the top of the page, he grabbed the pen tightly in his palm and began writing.
"Dear George, I don't even really know how to start with this. When you told me that you liked Colt I didn't even know how to react. I guess I was hurt, and confused, and worried, and angry. I feel bad because I really didn't say much of anything. I was sobbing way to much. I wasn't really able to form a sentence so that's why I hung up so quick. You're one of the best things that's ever happened to me and I don't want to lose you. But I also want you to be happy. And if that means you would be happier with Colt, that's something I guess i'll have to accept. We haven't talked in one day and i'm already missing you like crazy. I'm not sure why you didn't say anything in the call with Sapnao the other day. It was really fucking confusing and the reason I was zoning out so much was because I didn't know why you were acting so normal. I'm not sure if you felt like you didn't want Sapnap to know, or if there's something else you haven't told me but i've spent like almost 5 hours thinking about all this, i'm not even joking. At this point I think i've over thought my overthinking and it's really not good. I miss you George. I don't know if you liking Colt has anything to do with me, but I feel like it does. Did I do something? Am I not making you happy? Are you okay? Are you mad at me? Whatever the fuck it is I need to know so I can try and fix it. I've been super confused lately and your smile has just been confusing me way more. I already miss your snarky remarks to my unintentional flirting. Sometimes I wish we could just go back to our simple friendship. I feel like I always over complicate things with my feelings. I miss laughing with you about the stupidest stuff, and I miss effortlessly talking to you without feeling like i'm just messing everything up. I don't even know why i'm writing all this cause it's not like you're even gonna ever see this. So uh yeah those are my feelings I guess."
Clay looked over the letter, "Holy shit, why did I just write all that." He said laughing, but the laughing soon turned into tears. While he was mindlessly sobbing he grabbed an envelope out of his drawer, folded the paper and put it inside. He closed the envelope and addressed it to George, even though he knew he was never gonna send it. He walked into his kitchen and threw the letter onto his counter. He grabbed a glass of water and picked up his phone that was laying on the counter, he went onto messages and still saw nothing from George. He clicked onto him and Georges message thread and started to type. "Hey George." He slowly typed, reading the message over and over again, soon deleting it. He shut his phone and placed it back onto the counter.
He sat in the kitchen for almost an hour. "Fuck I really need to stop thinking about this." He said to himself, slowly wiping the tears off his face. He walked into the bathroom and slowly locked the door. He weakly took of his clothes and stepped into the hot shower. He sat down and continued to cry. His tears mixing with the water, and his whimpers and sniffles getting muffled from the loud shower. He sat in the corner of his shower for almost 30 minutes, just thinking, again. He stood up and turned the water off, stepping out of the shower and wrapping himself in a towel. He dried off and remembered he didn't bring clothes into the bathroom. He walked into his room and saw Patches laying on his bed. He quickly put sweats on and picked up his cat. He heard is phone go off in the kitchen and ran to go grab it. "Hey dude, checking in. How's everything?" The text from Sapnap read. Clay smiled through his tears and replied. "Yeah everything is fine ig, I wrote something for George but i'm not gonna send it. I just took a shower because I was crying and didn't feel well. Now i'm probably gonna watch tv or Youtube with Patches." "Alright, just drink water and don't stress too much :)". Sapnap replied. "<3" Clay took his phone and went back into his room. He grabbed Patches again and climbed into his bed, placing his cat softly onto his chest. He softly kissed his cat and grabbed his remote. He turned on his tv and went onto Youtube. Georges video from last week being the first in his recommended. He shakily pressed onto the video and the first clip was him and George running around a world laughing and hitting each other. He felt the warm tears rushing down his cheeks again and falling onto his collarbone. He quickly wiped his face and grabbed the glass of water off his night stand. He drank the water while sniffling softly and and petting Patches. His thoughts all over he place whole the video played in the back, lighting up his room.
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Authors note- This is gonna be a longer A/N so just bare with me lol. Today was super bad and I felt horrible the whole day, mentally and physically lol. Karl and Sapnaps stream and Dream and Dristas stream really helped but this whole day and all of last week was super stressful so i'm sorry this chapter is shorter and I was only able to get one chapter out this week. I am going back to school next week which is gonna take a lot of my time. I don't think I will have enough time to post every day on my tiktok as I will also need days to work on this fanfic. I most likely will post every-other day if i'm not able to post everyday. After next week i'm on spring break so i'm hoping to get a few chapters out as I will have free-time. I hope ya'll understand and are enjoying this so far :] Consider voting if you'd like!
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