Hybristophilia | Kylo Ren x Reader.

Get On All Fours.

*AN - And this chapter really said, hate fuck.*

Your head was spinning, a red hot anger was bubbling in your veins. Your blind date had turned out to be much more than you bargained for, the fucking fiancé of your new client no less. You felt a deep embarrassment forming in your gut, shame forming around you like a heavy cloak. You got back to your table, your face set in a frown, tears pricking in your eyes.

"Where did you go?" Rose asked impatiently.

"Julia wanted me to meet her...fiancé." You said, almost vomiting at the word.

"What's he like?" Rose said.

You wanted to tell her the truth, but you couldn't bring yourself to ruin her evening, she was enjoying herself, and some things are better off being kept a dark secret.

"He's, fine." You muttered, lying through your teeth as you bought a fresh glass of champagne to your lips.

You drank almost a whole bottle, letting your anger level lower to a gentle simmer. You didn't look over at Kylo...or Ben...whoever the fuck he was, again. You wanted to forget that he ever existed. You wanted to erase any memory of him, the way he used you for his own sick benefit, seduced you into a false sense of security and comfort. He was going to marry Julia, and you didn't want to face her wrath if she ever found out about it. You felt like giving the wedding over to Holdo instead, quitting therapy, moving out of the fucking city, but that wasn't like you. It wasn't your fault he had lied his way into your vulnerable, lonely arms. No, he would have to suffer with seeing your face a lot more often.

"Hello again." The same handsome stranger from earlier said. You looked into his deep blue eyes, seemingly more beautiful now through your drunken haze. 

"Hello...sorry, I didn't get your name." You smiled sweetly, clinking your glass against his.

"Vicrul." He purred, his hand moving to your lower back. His touch felt warm and enticing.

"It's nice to meet you Vicrul." You giggled, telling him your name.

You looked over at Rose, she raised an eyebrow at you but then her face softened and she winked. Her eyes went back to the woman she was speaking to before, giving you a chance to get to know this, Vicrul, a little better.

"Even nicer to meet you, my darling." He said in a low purr, sending goose bumps down your spine. His face lowered, lips grazing your ear softly. "Care to join me outside?" 

You nodded, allowing your arm to rest in Vicruls. You held his solid bicep and made your way out of the bustling hall. You didn't turn around to look, but you sensed that Kylo was watching you, a pair of phantom eyes burning into the back of your skull.

You let Vicrul lead you outside to the front of the looming manor, knowing this is where Kylo lived made you feel nauseous. This is where he slept, in bed with Julia, this is where he came back to whilst you showered alone. It suited him, it was cold and shallow, lacking warmth and heart. You should have known he was a fucking liar.

You took a cigarette from Vicrul and placed it between your raven lips. He lit it for you and you gave him a smile, accepting the smoke gratefully. You looked down at your dress, it was so beautiful, but now it was tainted with bad memories. Before you could blink Vicrul pinned you against the stonewall of the manor, trapping you against his chest. You looked up at him with playful doe eyes as you dragged your cigarette.

"You're the most beautiful one in that big room...do you know that?" He asked, his knee brushed against your clit, making you jump slightly.

"I...I didn't." You whimpered, bucking your hips into his muscular leg, aching for more friction.

Vicrul gritted his teeth, raising his neck to blow his smoke over your head instead of in your face. You saw his adams apple bob, the skin on his neck looked so inviting, you couldn't help but plant a small kiss against it. He grunted, encouraging you to plant more. You kissed, sucked and nipped his neck, leaving a trail of black lipstick in your wake. As you gingerly kissed away at Vicruls husky throat, you heard someone clear their throat obnoxiously. Vicrul backed away from you and you looked up to see Kylo, arms crossed, rocking back and forth on his heels.

"Could you give us a minute." You whispered to Vicrul, he nodded and politely went back inside, Kylo glared into his eyes as he brushed past him.

You stood there for what felt like an eternity, staring into each others angry eyes from behind your masks. You dropped your cigarette and squashed it into the gravel below you with a few harsh twists of your ankle. Before you could protest, Kylo grabbed your wrist and dragged you down the pathway into a small patch of the front garden that was surrounded with thistle bushes. You could hear his heavy breaths, almost growling. You snatched your hand away from him and rubbed your sore wrist.

"What the fuck do you want?" You hissed, tired of being the nice girl, tired of his bullshit.

"I wanted to talk to you." He said firmly.

"Well go on then, talk..." You spat through gritted teeth.

"Someone is being a bad girl tonight, isn't she?" He purred, moving closer to you.

"Don't patronise me. Ky-B-whatever your fucking name is, you repulse me." You scoffed, moving backwards. 

His strong hands found your waist and pulled you harshly towards him, his lips were close to your face now, his hot breath against your skin made you feel sick. But your body betrayed you yet again, a familiar wetness pooling in your underwear. 

"I just want to know why...why you lied to me, why you cheated on Julia." You whimpered, unable to move from his clutches.

He let out a menacing laugh at your feeble attempt to escape him, tilting his head at you. 

"I didn't technically lie to you, my middle name is Ben." One of his hands nestled into your hair, undoing the ribbon of your mask, letting it fall to the ground. "And like I said on our date, I was craving something new."

"You...you're a monster, hiding behind a mask, literally." You sighed, a psychotic laugh leaving your throat.

He pulled his own mask of his face and you stood their, completely stunned by his beauty once again. His thumb found your cheeks, wiping the tear away. You almost stopped breathing, his eyes sparkled in the pale moonlight, his lips looked so plush and inviting. You would be lying if you said you didn't want to feel them against yours again.