Before - H.S

Fourteen

*I am adding songs so I suggest playing them while reading*

"oh breathe, just breathe..."

Florence Rhodes:

Just hearing those words echo down the phone make me feel sick to my stomach, I don't think I have fully digested what he has just said to me, I just say we will be there and hang up the phone.

"Flo what's happened?" Louis asks me with tears briming in his eyes.

I can't stand to tell him; I just got the news that should have gone directly to him or the boys. I try to tell louis what we have to do but it's like I'm choking on each and every word, they won't leave my mouth, my throat is being jammed by them and I can breathe. This is officially my worst nightmare, it's the scenario that haunts you, always lingering in the back on your mind but you tell yourself over and over that your being stupid, you convince yourself that you're making it up, jumping to conclusions. Then the reality comes blasting at you and that nightmare, that haunting scenario becomes terrifyingly real, everything you thought you knew comes crashing down. Once again, your left feeling abandoned.

"W-We have to identify a body...they think it harry" I stutter, the words making my state of denial even harder to uphold.

Louis crashes to the floor and lets out that haunting cry, the thing I call the death scream, there is something extremely sinister about that sound, even more so when its someone you know, when it's the sound that you wish you could get out, but something in you is begging you to keep it in.

I walk over to louis who is staring into space, he is almost in a trance which is exactly how I feel right now. I sit down next to him and stare at the wall with him. I feel his head lower to lean on my shoulder, tears are slowly seeping out of his eyes. I never knew what harry and louis relationship was like, I don't think I ever saw them interact but it seems like they meant a lot to each other

"This is all my fault" Louis whispers under his breath

"No, its not louis, I promise." I whisper back

It feels like we have been staring at the hotel room wall for hours but when I get a text through from Niall I realise that it's only been around half an hour, I could honestly stay here for a lot lo ger but I now avoiding it won't make it go away.

'coming up to your room now!' the text reads

I then hear a knock on my hotel room door. I gradually stand up, I can feel a huge weight on my body, I have heard people say that when they lose someone they feel like a part of them is missing and that they feel uncomfortably light, but I feel the total opposite I feel like harry is in me and weighing me down. I open the door of my room and Niall is stood there smiling.

"Mission fucking accomplished!" he yells as he invites himself in "I know we are supposed to keep out mouths shut Infront of everyone else but I just witnessed the craziest shit ever, Seriously flo you're going to wish that you were there, I can't tell you why though even though harry told me he thinks that you're on to us"

Niall then jumps onto the bed and lies down laughing

"Niall, what have you been drinking?" I ask

"Hmm let me think, tequila, vodka, I had three cocktails who knows what were in them, one i swear was bright green" He slurs

He then jumps up and starts bouncing on the bed, "Come on flo join me, don't be a party pooper" He shouts

He then stops suddenly and looks around the room, maybe he has finally realised that he should probably read the room before he starts to yell.