Say Something

Chapter 17

Buzzing

I hear a buzzing sound. It makes my head hurt. I think it's morning or noon, I don't know, I'm not sure. I've been laying here in my bed for 3 days. Mom tried to convince me to go down and eat but I don't feel like doing anything. She tried to take me to the mall saying (shopping makes anyone happy) but I declined her offer. She tried many things but I still feel like shit.

For the last three days my phone has been ringing none stop. Some calls are from Nina and some from Dan. I didn't reply to any of them. I mean really ? Why are you calling Dan? Do you expect me to answer?

And as for Nina, I honestly don't feel like talking to anyone. So yeah, that's why I haven't talked to anyone lately.

My life is so fucked up at the moment. And to be honest, I'm not ready to face anyone or take responsibility for anything. I just want to stay here, In my small yet comfortable bed and in my room, alone. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

As I open my eyes slowly so they can adjust to the light, my phone stops ringing. I reach to my nightstand to take the phone and see who's calling. When I press the button to open it, it starts ringing again. Dan's calling and I accidentally answer. But I decide to exploit the chance and tell him to stop calling me.

"What do you want Dan? To hurt me more?" I Answer, sadness is clear in my voice.

"Please Jade. I want to talk you. I miss you so much babe" he pleads. A small gasp leaves my mouth when he calls me babe.

"Dan. No!" I plead too.

"No Jade. Listen to me. I love you and you have to listen to me. Can you meet me somewhere? I need to see you and tell you everything"

"Please don't say you love me. And no you can't see me, if you have somthing to say you can say it now" I sigh and put my arm over my eyes while laying on my back.

"But I do love you. I swear. I wasn't acting, I didn't lie. At first I just wanted to do whatever Adam told me and get it over with. Of course I felt bad because you didn't deserve any if it. But I fell for you, so fast-" He keeps rambling and I can't keep listening to whaterver he's saying whether it's true or not.

"Dan I have to hang up. Please don't call me again because I won't pick up" I tell him and hang up before he replies and before I chicken out.

Will I ever get over my feelings towards him? I still have no answer to this question. Hopefully someday I will.

-

"Oh dear lord. Jade's not dead. She woke up!" Carla screams when she sees me stumbling to the kitchen. I look absolutely like a zombie. My hair is standing everywhere over my head. Wearing sweatpants and a hoodie for two days.

"Ha ha" I roll my eyes at her annoying sarcasm.

"Well.. it's nice to see you again" she smiles and I nod not saying anything. Mom walks into the kitchen and smiles at me.

"Hey sweetie" she gives me a warm smile.

"Hey" I say coldly. I know it's rude but I can't help it.

"I'm going to school tomorrow" I announce. While pouring milk on my cornflakes. Mom sits infront of me and puts her hands on the table.

"Oh. That's great!" She says happily. Her brown eyes wide.

"Yeah. Can I take your car?" I ask chewing on my lip while looking her in the eyes.

She smiles and nods. "Of course Jade"

"Thanks" I give her a small smile and stand up to put my bowl in the sink.

"I wanna drive too" Carla says crossing her arms against her chest. She looks like a five year old. Mom looks at her and chukles.