Different// Joshler

10: Remember Me

I walked into Josh's room, room twenty one. He was asleep and I just stood there. He looked so beautiful. I stood at the edge of his bed and opened my mouth.

"Remember me. Though I have to say good bye. Remember me. Don't let it make you cry. For even if I'm far away. I hold you in my heart. I sing a secret song to you. Each night we are apart. Though I have to travel far. Remember me. Each time you hear a sad guitar. Know that I'm with you. The only way that I can be." Tears started to break through the wall behind my eyes.

"Until you're in my arms again. Remember. Me." I sang. He shifted slightly, his arm draped over his stomach. Like my legs used to be. The red flame man didn't remember me. He didn't remember how he had a coffee named after him in my shop.

He didn't remember the job he had or the last two years he'd spent with me. How did he remember Ashley. Or Brendon. Or Dallon. Or Jenna?!? Or any of those nobodies. We were supposed to be together forever. Have a family together, maybe.

I opened my mouth again, "Our story together, is that of a weird one. You called me different, yet all along you were the different one. You did things I never would've expected. You took me to a treehouse where we ate sandwiches and drink room temperature soda. Which I never would've known you had known I liked it. It was completely amazing. I love you and I would've never expected you to love me too." I spoke.

"Tripping over a picnic basket," I said before letting out a small laugh. "That caused our demise, our doom, our end, it was something nobody's probably ever done before. But it reminded me. Life moves on and we can't do anything about it. We just have to take a breath and live." I said.

"But the thing is. You were my breath and I can't live without you. I don't want to. But I have to. Otherwise you're gonna think I'm some crazy psycho. I just love you. And if you somehow remember me again. My name is Tyler Robert Joseph. I live in Columbus Ohio. Our friends are Brendon Urie, Dallon Weekes, Jenna Black and Ashley Frangipane." I said, and then turned around toward the door.

Knowing that I could never come back. I sighed. "Remember, me," I said and then walked a step closer to the door. The end. "I love you, Joshua William Dun." I whispered under my breath and then left.

I was walking toward the exit when Ash walked in. "What are you doing here?" She asked me. "I was saying my goodbyes." I said. "He's not going to forget you forever." She tried to assure me. "It's better to be safe, thinking he will. Than trying to think he doesn't when he does and just hurt me." I said and she nodded. "I understand your reasoning."

I sighed again, was I really about to do this? Yes, I had to. "I'm shutting down the coffee shop." I told her and she gasped. "No- Tyler! No you can't!" She said. "Everyone else have their own lives. Jenna has a kid, Brendon and Dallon are wrapped up in each other. There's nobody else who-," I then stopped, realizing the perfect person to take over. "You," I said and she looked up. "What?" She asked.

"You," I repeated. "You are the perfect person to keep it going! You can name it whatever you want! It'll be perfect. I can't keep that shop, Ash. It contains too many memories." I told her. "What about this town? Your house? Us?" She said, referring to the gang. "You'll all be fine without me," I assured her. "But we love you." She said.

"And I you, but is it really the best idea for me to stay here? Tortured?" She shook her head at my statement. "No, it's not." She replied. "Then go I must." I said, putting on a fake smile. Unsure of where I was to go. Where I'll be tomorrow, where I'll be in a year.

"Okay, you have all our numbers and don't forget about us. Talk to us." She said and then kissed my forehead. Memories rang in my ears of when Josh did that. The wall broke again, and tears slipped past my guard. "I won't." I said and then ran past her. Running away from the hospital to my car.

I looked back at the hospital before getting in. "You were different. You saw things like nobody else. I just hope you remember me. So we can see things differently together." I said, getting in my car, starting it, and driving away.