Behind The Scenes

Day 11, Control

 Okay, today i'll put on a brave face. I cant let anyone know that anything is wrong. Especially karma. Karma can never know about what happened. I don't want to ever worry him.

(lunch time)

The warm sun feels nice. I enjoy eating out here. It's peaceful and there's few people outside during this time. I close my eyes and enjoy the warmth willing yesterday's memories to go away.

"Hey nagisa." I turn around knowing that voice.

"Hey karma. It's nice to see you"

He chuckles showing me that cute smile of his "we saw each other earlier remember?"

I blush at his tease remembering that we had indeed talked earlier this morning. "You know what i mean." I look down and smile at myself.

He sits down and gazes at me. I can't help but to look at him. His eyes are so easy to get lost in. behind his tough appearance he does have some kind eyes... wait but i know his eyes can be intimidating so why do they always seem so kind towards me? I can't help but to think i'm lucky in that way. I wonder if I'm the only person who he looks at like this. I feel my cheeks start to redden as I realize just what I'm thinking and quickly look away.

I hear karm chuckle again and it brings me back to looking at him. "I wonder what you just thought about to give that sort of face."

"Wha? Karma, don't make fun of me."

"I can't help it, your responses are really cute."

I puff out my cheeks to him and before I know it he ruffles my hair. My mood drops and I flinch away. I don't want to think about hands being in my hair.

"Eeh. sorry i didn't mean to startle you."

"No, no. it's okay. I think i'm just a bit jumpy."

"Is the letter still stressing you out?"

"Yea i guess you could say that."

"...Did anything more happen since we last talked about it."

"No, nothing happened, I'm fine."

Karma stares at me a little disbelievingly. "Alright if you say so, but remember i'm always here if you need to talk."

"Yea, i know, and thank you for being here."

"Yes of course. I would never abandon you." a smile quickly rises to his face. "Hey nagisa? Can i wrap my arm around your shoulder or is that off limits too?"

I can't help but chuckle and I nod my head "yeah that's fine."

He throws his arm around me and then playfully punches my arm "you know, you look better with a smile on your face."

Once again my body betrays me as a heat swells into my cheeks. He backs away clearly done with teasing me for a moment. I love it when he's like this...the heat rises as i realize what i just thought. Nope no, is this really a crush? Why is this so confusing?

(later at home)

"Nagisa dear." my mother yells from downstairs. I wonder what she wants, it's not time for dinner yet.

I open my bedroom door and yell back "yes mom?"

"Can you come down here please? I have a surprise for you." she's using that voice again, the one that says i want to do mother daughter things together.

"W-what is it the surprise?"

"Well you have to come down here to see it." I hear her laugh gently.