Family, Love, And Friendship

Talk

“Kei” “yeah Sion, what’s up?” “we need to talk” “oh ok what about?” “your change in behavior”  “my change in behavior, how?” “the fact that you’re more clingy, and when we go riding you are so focused on me. I’m worried you might get hurt, if I so much as breathe wrong you constantly check if I’m ok” “oh” “Kei it’s ok, I’m not mad, just confused, and worried, I talked to Ezrin about what happened that night. I don’t have memory of it no, but he told me what  happened, and I’ve come up with my own conclusion and reasoning. But regardless of that, we still need to talk, because even if I think I know why, I can’t know for sure unless you tell me Kei” “I.. I.. I’m sorry I don’t want to talk about it ok, so just leave me alone!!!” “Kei please!!” “I  told you I don’t want to talk about it!!!” “ Please Kei!!!” “I SAID, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!” I step back in shock, he’s never snapped at me like that before. But the look on his face as he looks away after yelling is full of anguish, something more is bothering him I can tell.  The only thing that comes to mind is that older kid at school who seems to have taken an interest in Kei lately, but even with that, Kei is more clingy and stays with me as much as possible. Wait a minute that time at school, we had to separate because of different classes, but when we saw each other again, he was acting differently. He was so quiet and out of it. Something must’ve happened during that time, but what? “Kei you can’t fool me, I can tell there is something more bothering you, it’s not just about what happened that night is it?” I go closer and pull him into my arms, and hold him at 1st he tries to push me away, but then moves to holding me closer, so tight in fact, that it kind of hurts. When I hold him tighter in return he starts to cry. “Kei, I won’t be mad or leave you behind no matter what happened, but please, I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what’s causing you so much pain” “he.. he.” “he who?” “the older student who likes me more all of a sudden” yeah, what about him?” “he, when we were separated because of our different classes, he seen me,  grabbed me by my wrist, it hurt I tried to fight him off but he covered my mouth, he was so strong,  he.. he dragged me into the deserted hall’s bathroom and forced me into the big stall, he touched me all over, I hated it. It felt so gross. I kept telling him to stop but he wouldn’t listen, when I tried to get out he pulled me back by the collar of my shirt, it choked me, I hit my head against the brick wall, then he put his hand around my throat and held me against the wall that way, he focused his other hand on my privates. I.. I.. I didn’t want to, but I came in his hand, then he cleaned his hand and left. My knees buckled and I slid down the wall and cried. Why Sion? Why me? I’ve been acting differently, because yes I’m worried about you and don’t want to lose you, but also because of what happened, I feel safest with you that’s why I’ve been clingy, but I’ve been quiet because I’m scared you’ll hate me now that you know, and that you’ll leave me behind, and he’ll be able to do it all over again” “No Kei of course I don’t hate you, and I won’t leave you either, I love you as if you are my own brother, and I’ll stay even closer now, so that he can’t hurt you again I promise” “but what.. what about when we have different classes?” “I’ll walk you to your class, you’d just have to stay close with your teacher and classmates, and if he tries again scream as loud as you can to attract attention, if it gets worse we have to tell your teacher and the principal, and possibly the authorities, but 1st would you feel better if you told Ezrin as well? or my  parents?” “no, I… I.. I want to keep it between you and me for now” “ok Kei, but promise me if he tries or does it again you will speak up, I’ll help you of course but Kei, the longer this goes on the worse it will get, and the more he thinks he can, and will get away with it” “I… I understand, Sion thank you” “of course, I’ll always be here for you no matter what, I promise you that” we hug more for a while longer then when he starts to let go I do as well. So I was right, he didn’t want to lose me, but I didn’t think he’d be carrying something else that is so painful. I know he said he wanted to keep it secret, but doing that just doesn’t feel right, but I’ll honor his wishes for  now.