Invisible String [BxB]

Chapter 26

Paul Jaycee Esguerra

"After all those years, Kian hasn't change. He's still as good as when we heard him sing for the first time." sabi ng kaklase namin kaya napatingin kaming lahat sa kanya.

"Yes! Grabe. That's one of the reasons why Irish fell for Kian right?" sabi naman nung isa.

Nakikinig lang ako at si Adi sa kanila. It's been minutes since Kian finished performing and up to now hindi pa rin siya bumabalik.

"Hey! Stop. Don't bring back the past." nahihiyang sabi ni Irish.

"Ayie. You guys have been hanging out lately. Nagbalikan na kayo 'no?" biro nung isa sa table namin.

"Sure 'yan! Look at them now!" yung isa pa.

I looked down and I played with my own hands. Their conversation is really making me upset for I don't know what reason. Plus the fact that they're actually making sense. 

What if Kian and Irish really got back together?

Naramdaman ko na hinawakan ako ni Adi sa likod. Tumingin ako sa kanya. She smiled so I smiled too.

"Walang ganyan!—"

"Oh, Kian." narinig kong sabi ng isa naming kaklase. 

Napaangat ako agad nang tingin noong marinig ko yung pangalan ni Kian. He's here.

"You did a great job!" sabi ni Irish saka biglang niyakap si Kian.

From Kian's face reaction, nagulat siya. I am too.

"Woah. Haha Thanks." sagot lang ni Kian.

"Ayiee!" sigawan ng mga kasama namin sa table pati yung mga nasa malapit.

I really don't like everything that's flashing before my eyes. Every second that passes by brings uncomfortable feeling and for some reason, my heart broke...a little.

I couldn't take it anymore.

"I need to pee." bulong ko kay Adi saka tumayo. I didn't wait for her answer and I walked away.

From small steps, to bigger, then I found myself running.

Huminto ako noong hiningal ako. Napayuko ako at napahawak sa tuhod ko habang habol-habol ang hininga.

I am now at the darker side of the school. Quite far from where the event is happening.

I placed my hand on my chest. My heart won't stop aching. I know I don't have any rights to feel this hurt but what should I do?

Warm liquid already formed under my eyes. Ready to fall down from any minute now.

"I'm such a cry baby." sabi ko sa sarili ko saka pinunasan yung luhang tumulo na sa pisngi ko.

Who am I fooling? Why am I falling in love with someone that's obviously will never think of me the way I think of him?

He will never like me. Not even in my wildest dreams. He's straight, he would never fall for me.

I don't know but I just can't stop crying. My tears are flowing on their own.

I hate myself.

I took out the bracelet that I will give for him from my pocket. I stared at it, it's still beautiful.

"I think I just have to accept the things for what it is now and not go any further." sabi ko sa sarili ko.