Whispers of Silence

Hopel̶e̶s̶s̶lost

Someone asked me, "Where were
   you when I needed you the most?
You told me you'd always be there
   even when all hope is lost,
Yet I can't seem to find you when I
   hit rocky road."
I left—not because I lack of reasons
   but because they can't seem to be
   translated to words.

Hence, I screamed on top of my
   lungs inside my head.
For we are books we'd never
   understand even if we read.
When she was drowning in the seas
   of her struggles,
Little did she know—or did she have
   any idea?—I was scorned and
   scorching in the flames of my
   mistakes.

I refrained from envisioning hope—
   for hope is nowhere near me.
Is it somewhere near you, lords and
   ladies?
Good. Embrace it. Because I can't.
   Not now.