Kill The Flame

Dark love.

On set for a future,
In wait for adventure
But something pulls me back in the end,
So sure one second,
So confused the next.

Dark love,

Is it me, is it you?
Or is it them?
What makes it that I'm so comfortable in this yet so uncomfortable.
Isn't it supposed to be easy?
Is this what love is?

Love you when you're close and loathe you when you're gone,
Hate you when we talk but miss you when you're gone,
Love your stories but I hate your past,
Miss your laugh but I hate your voice.
Love your eyes but I hate your face.
Feel broken when you're here and unwhole when you're gone.
Unhappy when you're with me but sad when you go.
To love that you make me smile but hate that I feel it's forced.
I miss home but I hate that you're there.

I say the words but I have to think about it.

I see them even when I'm so sure it's you
Thought I had it all but in them I see something I don't in you.
Don't want to hurt you but I feel it's all I do.
I want to fix you but I'm afraid I'll have to break you.
Don't want to lose you but I feel like you already lost me.
Where did it go wrong, eh?

Last night I saw you in a gown in my dreams
Saw myself playing out back with our kids,
And I woke up to my own screams,
Weren't those our dreams?
Don't know what it means,
But I know how bad it feels, jeez!

I can't stay, I can't leave.
Want to pray, but I can't breathe,
Pray for the end of this dark love but it pains me,
The thought of losing it.