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 *Insert a stupid excuse on why I haven't updated in a while*

Yeah, and that's why I haven't updated in a while :(

BUT I'm back. Hopefully, I'll try and update regularly.

It's been 3 years. Three years since Atsumu's death and his friends and family are still not over it. Especially his boyfriend, Sakusa Kiyoomi. 

" Why.. why did you have to leave me idiot ! " he yelled on Atsumu's grave, pain and hurt in his voice. " I just.. want to know why did you leave me.. " he said after calming down but sobbing. He looked at the image next to Atsumu's grave. It was a large photo of him and his family and closest friends, and his boyfriend all smiling and laughing and doing other crazy things behind the photo. He let out a chuckle, remembering how hard it was for everyone to take a simple picture together but in the end they decided to use that picture for Atsumu's grave because it was a picture where all of Atsumu's loved ones were there.

Ever since Atsumu's death, Sakusa Kiyoomi has been on the edge. He became more distant than before because Atsumu used to force him to hang out with him and their friends, smiling way less because he missed his boyfriend and began having frequent panic attacks which used to be stopped by Astumu. 

The atmosphere was cloudy and depressing. Just then a small drop of water hit his nose, signaling it was about to rain. Luckily, he saw the weather forecast and knew this was coming. He grabbed his umbrella but before leaving he quietly said, " I love you.. Tsumu.. I always will.. " and placed a chrysanthemum flower in the pile of flowers he put daily while he silently let out a tear from his eyes.

While walking, he noticed all the couples walking together with one umbrella while holding hands and doing lovey - dovey stuff. Sakusa didn't want to be ' the odd one out ' because he was the only one single. ' Ew ' he thought and walked a little faster.

Sakusa's POV~

As I arrived home, I quietly opened my door and took of my shoes. I would usually can't wait for  to come home and yell, ' I'm home ! 'to see my adorable boyfriend running downstairs in our shared apartment and attack me with kisses and force me to cuddle.

But now..

" I'm home ! " I yelled but in response but got nothing.

It's just different..

I sighed in sadness and went to the living room and sat on the couch, casually watching the news but I wasn't paying attention. I was thinking about.. him.

I missed Tsumu.. I'm miss you Atsumu Miya. I miss your stupid face, your smile that can instantly change anyone's mood. I missed your rants between you and your brother and our nightly cuddles.

Just thinking about him makes my heart ache more. I try to move on but I can't, neither can Osamu. He also felt incomplete without his brother. I mean I can't blame him they were like yin and yang, although they fight deep down they care for each other deep and would protect each other till death.

In bed~ ( At nighttime )

I laid in bed and looked to my left to see nothing, just an empty space which was once used by Atsumu. It felt so weird adjusting to him not being there and it still is. I tried closing my eyes but it happened.. again.

Flashback to 3 years ago~

It was a quiet and normal day for Sakusa was in his home watching the news. Everything was fine.. until..

" Also on recent news a 19 year old boy by the name of Atsumu Miya was hit by a drunk driver on his way to Hygo "

Sakusa's POV~