The Last Experiment (Y/N)

Chapter 14

Y/N's POV:
Nat let's me out early in the morning standing guard at my door to make sure Wanda stayed away. I had a quick shower and got dressed in casual clothes I wasn't in the mood to train today. Nat said she had a treat for me. We head down the corridor and Carol approaches.
"Hey Nat, Y/N. I just wanted to say no hard feelings," she says approaching us. I completely ignore her walking past her.
"What no Wanda today?" She mutters. I turn round and before I can punch her Nat does.
"For being an Ass. I take back what I said yesterday. At this point I'd rather date Thanos than you and he's a pile of ash," she quipped back before we walk down the hallway.
"Thanks for doing that. I was about to but I'm glad you did instead," I say.
"You're welcome. I talked to Tony and Fury and they agreed to let me take you for a drive but you have to wear these quantum bracelet things." Finally some freedom. I was delighted to be getting out  of this place.

I wait in the foyer for Nat to pull up. Wanda starts walking towards me as she does. I completely ignore Wanda getting in the car for Nat to drive off instantly. She pulls up a bit further away and puts the bracelets on me before we start driving again.
"So where are we going?" I ask.
"I thought we could finally get that McDonald's you asked for and then we could park somewhere with a view and eat," she suggests.
"That sounds great. Thanks Nat."
"You're welcome. I'm just sorry you have to wear those stupid bracelets," she says.
"Nat it's fine. They make me look like a badass. I need all the confidence boost I could get right now. Honestly things couldn't get any worse I mean first she insinuates that there's something going on between you and I then I ask her to be my girlfriend while assuring her I plan to fall in love with her. Then she lingers too long in a kiss in a game. Being straight just sounds so easy right about now. I mean Thor's aesthetically pleasing to look at. If I really had to go straight he'd be a great beard," I try to make light of the situation.
"I'm sorry Y/N it's sucks but I'm glad you can joke about the situation. Why did she think there was something going on here? I mean yes we flirt a lot but it's our banter," she says confused.

We order at McDonald's and head to a lookout point over the City that Nat had found. It was amazing. It made all these issues I was having seem minuscule and nothing.
"What's space like Nat?"
"I don't particularly have fond memories," she mutters.
"Shit I'm so sorry I completely forgot. I'd read a lot about all of you and some parts I guess just slip," I apologise.
"It's ok. The colours are unlike anything you've ever seen. There's so many shades. What was your favourite thing you read about me?" Nat asks.
"That you basically told the government to fuck off. I actually found the clip online. You looked pretty badass walking out of there," I laugh.
"I loved that. I'd do it again in a heartbeat. What's your favourite non killing memory?"
"When I was in school this girl that I liked was being picked on by this boy. He just didn't leave her alone so I kicked him where it hurt," I explain.
"So you've always been a protector of women then," she observes.
"Yeah I guess you could say that. Or you could just say that I'm really very gay. You know Romanoff I never had you down for someone who swung both ways. Who was your gay awakening? We all have one."
"My gay awakening was probably also my first experience with a girl. It was when I was a spy back in Russia. I was in a bar drinking and this woman came in she had long black hair and a black leather jacket. There was just a confidence about her. She sat down next to me bought me a drink and l was hooked. We drank and danced and then yeah," she explains. Nat gets a text on her phone.
"We should head back. Dr Raynor is waiting for you," she says throwing me the car keys.
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Of course I am."

I'd forgotten what it was like being behind the wheel and actually in control of something in my life. It was exhilarating. Nat getting me out of HQ is exactly what I needed.
"So are you going to forgive her?" She asks.
"I mean it was just a game but it still hurt you know. After one of notoriously good speeches she did that," I joke. We pull up to the foyer and Dr Raynor is there waiting. Nat takes off the bracelets and I give her a quick hug before following the Doctor. I walk into where the cell is and Wanda is stood there looking nervous. Sitting down as far away from her as I can I say nothing not acknowledging her presence.
"So Y/N how have you been any nightmares?" She asks.
"What do you call it when your nightmares happen during the day? But they're not dreams they're reality?" I respond.
"Wanda already explained what happened but I'm asking about your nightmares," she insists.
"Not as badly or for as long but I had a different one last night. I don't even know what happened so I would really like to know."
"What was the one about last night?" Dr Raynor asks.
"Should we call Carol in here and Wanda can give you a better visual representation of the image that's burnt into my brain or maybe she can use her powers to show you," I suggest.
"We're not here to talk about you and Wanda. We're here to discuss your trauma," Dr Raynor responds impatiently.
"So why is she here then? To make me feel guilty? My trauma is finally opening myself up to having feelings and telling someone I'm falling for them Then within an hour of the person you trust most in this world becoming your girlfriend they kiss someone else in a game for way longer than is necessary," I explain.
"She's here cause I asked her to be. I can see we're going to get nowhere today so let's make the session a little different and discuss the events of last night,"the doctor says. I sit there looking at her not talking.
"What do you want me to say? she knows what happened way better than I do."
"Ok Wanda if you don't mind," Dr Raynor asks. I roll my eyes.
"We were playing truth or dare and Carol was dared to kiss the most attractive person in the room. Y/N told her to hurry up and then Carol pulled me up off the sofa kissing me. The kiss was quite long. As soon as the kiss was finished Y/N left and she spent the night sleeping in here," Wanda explains.
"Can you see why I'm angry now?" I ask the doctor.
"Why did you linger Wanda?" She asks.
"Because I was in shock. I thought she was going to pick Nat. It didn't mean anything to me nothing at all. I was so happy that you'd asked me to be your girlfriend. I'm sorry I screwed that up. I know I should've pushed her away cause you would've done," she apologises. I can't even look at her.
"Can I leave please Doctor I can't be here right now?" I ask and she nods.

Before I know it I'm in the training room punching the hell out of the bag. Why did I let myself get feelings? Why did I change everything about myself for someone that doesn't want to be with me? I punch the bag over and over and over again until it goes flying. I'm bent over on the floor crying when Nat comes in.
"It's ok I've got you," she says holding me as I fall apart.