Only When You're There

part 8

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Danny's POV

Shit. I panicked wondering if Drew knew I wanted to quit YouTube. I just wish that my parents were happy. I want them to understand that youtube is what I want to do. And then Peanut died. The stress has just added up and I just finally snapped. That is why I started cutting. It's also why I want to quit. I want to be what people want from me. The problem is what other people want me to do, it isn't me. When I first told Drew I was worried he would think I was doing it for attention. This is far from the truth, I did it because I wanted to hurt myself. Drew stopped walking and stood in front of me, "Danny, please what's wrong?"

"I'm fine. I promise." I want to let Drew in but how am I supposed to do that.

"Danny please."

I wish Drew could just read my mind that way I wouldn't have to say it. I'm trying not to cry. I sucked in a breath then said, "I-I Think I might q-quit..."

"Quit what? You know you can tell me anything."
"Y-you t-tube." I couldn't contain my tears anymore and several dripped from my eyes. Drew didn't respond, instead, he hugged me. I honestly needed it. He didn't get mad like I thought he would. "Talk to me. Please," he said gesturing towards a large log. We both sat down.

"Danny please let me in. I want to help but I can't if I don't know what's going on." 

 I buried my face in my hands so I wouldn't have to face Drew. He put a hand around my shoulder. It feels good knowing he was there for me. After a few seconds, I rubbed my eyes and sat up. Drew moved his hand away and looked at me. "I can't deal with my parents giving me shit about youtube anymore."

"Is that the only reason?"

"Yeah...yeah, I do. I just can't deal with it anymore." I said

"It's your life you should do what makes you happy."

"But what makes me happy makes others unhappy."

"I know this is going to sound cliché but you need to do what is going to make you happy. You don't always have to please everyone, you're perfect the way you are. If someone doesn't like you for you and what you do fuck them." I stared at the ground and began to pick at the skin around my thumbnail.

"I don't want to feel this way. I wish I could just be happy again." I'm glad there was no one around to see me having a complete mental breakdown. I've never cried in front of any of my friends before. Why am I falling apart in front of Drew? I just want to be happy. I don't really remember a time when I ever truly was happy. Drew reached over to hug me again.