The secrets within us -Sirius black.

'Say something'

Song for this chapter:
Hostage by Billie Eilish.

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Months has passed now leaving us in our last week at the cottage . It has been a long summer break . With ups and downs . With sadness and happiness .

With angry and soft Sirius . With lovely Lily and James . With a complicated Dorcas and Remus . With a quite and excited Peter . With a caring Marlene .
With an afraid Scarlett.

It was never easy to take it out on parchments. It was never my intention to kill my father but i was scared , i was unknown . Everyone was getting on my nerves and nothing relaxed me except writing .

I kept writing , looking for answers and lastly writing my fathers name on the cover .

It's mid night now . Everyone went to sleep except me . I sat in front of the window staring at the dark sky with sad clouds that were waiting to let it out soon. With glowing stars that made the clouds look kinda happy . Kinda .

The yellow sand now turning light blue . The sea was angry hitting the rocks and here is me . Maybe alive but guilty , is this the life that everyone says it gets better ? You may say, you have an amazing life , money , manor and friends , why are you complaining ?

Life isn't always about money . Life is not always about how big is your house or how many clothes you have . Life is how many good memories you have .
How many good things you did to see a smile on someone else's face . That's life .

I feel guilty . So guilty .

I shouldn't have written it . I should've stopped before everything went down hill from there .

Sirius is dating Morgan. How much i wish it was me . It was never me . He hates me . I don't blame him . I hate me too .

I got up from the chair and wrapped my blanket around me . I opened the cottage door and got out closing it slowly.

I walked on the sand but i heard a sound from the forest behind the cottage . I didn't want curiosity to take over me .

A man came out of the trees and walked towards me . I stood there . I was scared . So scared . I wanted to scream for someone . I wanted to take out my wand and cast anything but there i stood staring at him with a blank face .

"Hart." , he said with a proud expression. "The mysterious daughter.", he added . "Yeah.", I replied . "Having writing talent ?", he said sarcastically.

"Spilling the secret of the dark lord .", he added now taking a step forward and i took a step back. "Afraid?", he whispered . My breath hitched .

He took another step forward and i took one back . "You killed him , you know that?", he whispered . I kept backing up til my blanket hit the water .

I held my wand firmly . "Stupefy .", i yelled at him and he was thrown back wards . Now death eaters were coming out of the forest . I ran into the forest from the other direction.

I ran and my blanket fell in the water . I was deep in the forest now . I hid behind a tree and hugged my knees . I started breathing fast . I was cold .
I felt everything closing on me .

I heard footsteps near me now . Behind me . A tear slipped from my eye and i tried holding my breathe but I failed terribly .

My hands started shaking . I couldn't speak , breath and i wanted to shut my eyes and be with him . I want him to hug me tight . I want him to tell me everything will be okay . Just once .

"Sirius.", I whispered out of breathe .

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Sirius's pov

I woke up on a loud knock on our room. I groaned . Marlene stormed inside and we all looked at her with tired eyes .

"Scarlett.", she said . "She is not here .", she said and i looked at her . My worrisome took over me now . It's Scarley . My Scarley .

I took my blanket off me and stormed out of the bedroom door .

"Did you check outside?", I asked .
"I did.", she said and my heart dropped .

Everyone was downstairs now .
"Marlene and i will look on the left side of the forest .", i said . "Lily, James and Remus on the right side.", i added .
"Peter, Mary and Dorcas on the road .", i said and everyone nodded.

Marlene and i walked into the left side of the forest looking for her . Her wand . I saw her wand on the ground .

I knelt and took it . "Oh my god .", Marlene said brushing her fingers through her hair. I held the wand firmly . Their were blood stains on it .

We walked further until i heard fast breathing . It was something from behind the big tree. Marlene and i looked at each other . I ran towards the tree .

She was on the ground hugging her knees , shaking and tears streamed down her face . I knelt next to her .

"It's okay Scarlett , it's okay .", i said and pulled her in a hug . "Say something.", i whispered but she shook more , cried more .

I cupped her face and looked in her eyes . "Shh.", i said pushing her hair behind her ears .

I looked at the palm of her hand and there was a cut bleeding . I pulled her into my chest .maybe once.

Marlene sat there crying when she saw the state of her best friend . I wanted to cry too but I cannot cause what is she to me ?

I carried her and Marlene followed . We got out of the forest and everyone was pathing in front of the cottage .

As they saw us they ran towards us .
"You found her thank god .", James said brushing his fingers through his hair .

Peter was anxious , sweating and he didn't talk . I took her inside and put her in her bed . I wrapped her wounded hand and covered her with a blanket .

I cleaned her wand from the blood stains and soon enough she fell a sleep . Without saying a word .

We all sat in the living room . Marlene's head in her hands , James leaning his head on a chair and i sitting on the arm chair with my hand on my chin .

What happened?

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