'No ..mum'

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Song for this chapter:
When the party's over by billie Eilish .

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"Hogsmeade today?", Mary asked and we all nodded . "Mate next week is the final quidditch match between Slytherin and us .", James said .

"We need more training time.", Sirius said eating his croissant. "Yeah , we have to win the cup .", i said and they agreed . I saw my owl flying above us dropping an envelope in my hands .

I looked at the envelope . 'St.mungo's'.
Why would i receive a letter from st. Mungo's ? .

I ripped the envelope open and unfolded the letter knitting my eyebrows together .

Scarlett Frances Hart,
               We are afraid to tell you that your mother had passed away last night due to a car accident which caused terrible injuries .

Sorry for your loss.
St.Mungo's .

Silence . Every sound around me died leaving me in that dark hole which i was lonely in , no one could hear me scream neither hear me cry .

My hands shook . Tears started falling from my eyes . It can't be true . Not my mum . Not Hazel Hart . The strong lady who taught me to be independent, to be strong . Not my mother .

My breathing hitched with every tear that left my eye .

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"Why are you sad?", she asked kneeling down next to me stroking my hair . "No one wants to be my friend mum.", i said and cried .

"Shh don't cry baby , don't cry.", she said wiping my tears . "You know what .", she started . "Princesses like you baby don't need friends when they have a kingdom .", she said .

"But what's my kingdom?", i asked .
"Books .", she said and smiled .
"How can books be my friends?", i asked . "It's a free place , they won't judge you .", she said and i smiled hugging her .

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"Scarlett.", Sirius said shaking me . Maybe he will wake me up from this nightmare i'm drowning in but he can't because it's not .

"No ..mum.", i whispered . A whisper i heard it was to high for me to be a whisper because my heart aches when i hear it . It breaks even more than it was broken .

The letter fell from my hands and Sirius took it . His expression fell and he looked at everyone else but his look wasn't happy anymore it fell . It fell too deep i can feel it .

"S-scarlett.", he stuttered . I covered my ears. I don't want to believe , it is the last thing i want to believe right now . I opened my eyes , stood up and walked outside of the great hall . I didn't run because running brings everything faster . I don't want it fast .
I don't even want it .

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"Mum i'm big and i know what i'm doing , you keep pushing them away from me .", i argued . "Because they will hurt you and I don't want you hurt.", she argued back.

"I don't understand you .", i said and left the table running to my room.

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Tears fell from my eyes with every word i told her . I never thought walking to a dorm would take all this time . It felt like eternities .

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"Mum?", i said . "Yeah.", she replied .
"What will happen to me if something happens to you?", i asked . "Then you will be all grown up and you won't need me .", she said looking at me with a faint smile .

"But i think i will always need you .", i said . "Trust me you won't.", she said and hugged me .

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I opened my dorm room and shut it behind me .

I got out the tape player and put one of her songs in it . Her voice . How she loved singing . It was her passion . She sang with every piece of her heart because she loved singing .

I shut my eyes wishing to see her but this time she won't hug me til i sleep but i will see her in my dreams where i see my dad too .

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Sirius

"I cannot leave her like this .", Marlene said standing up . "Marlene she needs space right now .", Lily said . "But she needs us .", Marlene added .

"Why is everything in her life falling apart?", i asked with a sigh and brushed my fingers through my hair.
"I don't know mate everything is taking a bad turn for her .", Remus replied .

"She doesn't deserve any of this.", Marlene said . "I know .", i said .
"She deserves the world .", i whispered .

"I don't think leaving her alone is a good idea , she needs to be held .", Mary said . "I will go I cannot let her be in that state alone .", Marlene said .

"I will come with you .", i said and we both stood up heading to their dorm .
When we stood close to the door we heard her mother's voice inside . A tear slipped from my eyes knowing that she has to go through that .

I went through that but i pretended that my mother was dead when she was alive . I opened the door and we saw Scarlett laying in bed crying .

Marlene walked towards her and hugged her . She cried more , she needed to be held by a best friend .

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"Mate it's okay.", James said while holding me . I cried because i was disowned that day and i had no one else except him for me .

"It hurts so bad , James.", i said .
"I know .", he replied .

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I sat next to Scarlett on the bed while Marlene went to the school's kitchen to find her some food .

She was asleep .

"I know it hurts baby.", i whispered .
"I know you feel like your heart is tearing apart right now , i hope i could take that pain away but i know I cannot, i will never leave you alone til the day i die Scarley .", i whispered and kissed her cheek .

They all stood at the door and i nodded to them.

"Scarlett.", i said and she woke up .
"Come.", i told her and she nodded Marlene placed the food on the desk and we all headed outside of the common room and outside of hogwarts .

We arrived at the quidditch field and we stood in the middle of it . "Tell her anything you want .", i said . She walked in front of us and we all stood behind her .

"Raise your wands to one of the greatest women of all time Hazel Nicole Hart.", i said and we all raised our wands and light emitted from them .

"Mum.", she said with a cracked voice .
"I hope you are not mad at me.", she said and i felt her tears . "Remember when you told me about the prince story and i asked you when i'll meet him and you told me in your darkest times .", she said .

"I met him mum.", she added and a tear streamed down my face .
"I hope you could've met him.", she said . "Mum i found my kingdom.", she added. "And i love it .", she said .
"I love you.", she said and raised her wand .

We all put down our wands . I walked towards Scarlett and hugged her . So tight . Because i knew how it felt and it is one of the worst things in life .

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