\Zianna\
Five words...five words helped turn my life back into a living hell.
I usually pride myself on thinking before I speak, but this time...
"You can't be serious. You cannot be serious Zianna" Colson fumed. His ears burned a bright red, he was pissed.
"I don't have to explain myself Colson" I protested
"Just repeat yourself. Repeat what you said"
He followed me all around my room, reprimanding me.
"I said I'm going back to him"
I was in the process of packing my things. James was at home waiting for me.
"SEE! DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT YOU SOUND DUMB?!" My best friend screamed
"MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS COLSON"
"MIND MY BUSINESS? THIS BECAME MY BUSINESS WHEN YOU TOLD ME WHAT HE WAS DOING TO YOU, IT BECAME MY BUSINESS WHEN YOU CALLED ME CRYING AFTER HE PUSHED YOU DOWN ON THE FLOOR, AND IT BECAME MY BUSINESS WHEN YOU STARTED STAYING AT MY HOUSE BECAUSE OF THE SITUATION. SO DON'T TELL ME TO MIND MY BUSINESS" He spat angrily
"I'm not telling you anything else" I shrugged, zipping my last bag.
He groaned, throwing his hands up in the hair and mumbling curses under his breath.
He said nothing else to me, he didn't even attempt to change my mind. He was upset, and rightfully so.
Pete was standing at the door, I knew he was about to try and change my mind.
"Zianna, please-" He started. He looked stressed out, so unhappy.
"Pete don't even start"
"Are you seriously going back to that douche? What about how he treats you? What about us?" He stammered. I rolled my eyes and pushed passed him, leaving out the door.
"Zianna, I'm being serious!"
"Pete, leave it alone, seriously!"
"You can't ignore what we have"
"Pete we fooled around for a month or so! That's it! I don't even know you for real" I barked. I hurriedly put my bags in the car and opened the door to the driver's seat. Colson was watching from the house, looking so disappointed in me. Pete was still trying to get me to stay. He wouldn't budge.
"We may not know each other that well, our relationship started fast-"
"Our affair started fast. I mean, I kissed you the day after everything happened and then we started having sex. That wasn't supposed to happen Pete"
"So what? You were under the impression that you were done with him"
"And I thought I was! But it was still wrong to move on that fast"
"Says who? He moved on even before you left!"
I stopped what I was doing and stared Pete dead in the eye. I knew he was right, I did. At that moment I realized how dumb I was being. There was a brief moment of realization that came over me, a brief moment of "girl wtf are you doing", but then I thought about everything James said- everything he told me yesterday night.
And I decided that I needed to go back
"Give it up, really" I stated harshly
"I wanna be with you. I feel in my heart that it's supposed to be me and you!"
"YOU BARELY KNOW ME! WE HAD SEX A COUPLE TIMES AND NOW YOU'RE IN LOVE? IT'S ONLY BEEN A MONTH- AND
I'M A MARRIED WOMAN"
He scoffed, shaking his head.
"You may be married, but he's not. You think he's gonna change for you, Zianna? You think y'all are gonna be this fairytale- happily ever after couple? Huh? Well you're not. He's gonna f*ck you over again, then you're gonna come right back to me. Mark my words. Get real"
I was shocked.
Baffled
He's never talked to me in that manner before, ever.
Question is, was he right?
"Pete, I-"
"Go ahead to your husband, you're right. You can't fall in love that fast, you're a married woman, and it was just sex"
"Pete, Pete listen" I begged
"I treated you better in a month and a half than he has throughout your whole entire marriage. I'm not asking to marry you, Zianna. I understand that we need to still get to know one another. I understand that with everything going on, you're probably afraid to jump back in a relationship. But come on now."
He took a brief moment to collect his thoughts. He was so upset with me, and I understood why. Everything he was saying was correct, nothing he said was a lie.
"I'm sorry" I cried. My tears raced down my face and stained my baby blue shirt.
Pete looked up at me. He grew his brunette hair out a bit, it laid lazily on his head. As always, he looked beautiful.
"I wish you all the best"
He turned around and joined Colson in the house. The door slammed shut, and I was left outside, dumbfounded.
I was sad, to say the least. And I knew I needed to go back in that house.
But I didn't. I drove back to my old home. James was in the living room- he yelled at me for coming home 25 minutes later than I was supposed to.
We had (very mediocre) sex that night. He was satisfied, I certainly wasn't.
I missed everything about Pete. I just wanted to roll over and see his face.
But I messed up, and it was too late now.
THE END >>>>
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