Gorillaz One-Shots.~

I loved you. (MDxR)

x|. Chapter based off of video by Voice Of An Angle. (Slight Angst?) .|x
F/D = Favorite drink.
H/C = Hair color.
E/C = Eye color.
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You made your way into a pretty noisy cafe, requested by the one your ex thought was okay enough. You sighed, looking up to see the green man waving slightly. You smiled, remembering some of the good times you had. You made your way to the table sitting down in the seat. You smiled, seeing a drink already waiting there. A (F/D). The smile soon faded, your eyes widening as you studied the man. He had heavy bags under his eyes, long, chipped nails, cheeks sunken in, a heavy smell of cigarettes, and not to mention, his skin had somehow gotten greener. You were taken out of your examination one you heard him clear his throat, sniffing a bit.

"Uh, thank yew fo' meetin' me here, luv," He began, "Yeah, I know is' a been a little while." You nodded, agreeing that it had been a minute since you've talked. He sighed, looking to the side, "I jus' had to talk to yew, yeah, about sum things." You felt a bit nervous about what the man had to say. Y'alls past wasn't so great. He cheated a couple times and mentally brought you down, sometimes getting drunk comparing you to more 'beautiful' women. But, y'all had stayed in contact until about 3 months ago when you both completely stopped talking. He had messaged you about a week ago asking if you wanted to meet up, so you being a pretty caring and forgiving person, you agreed. Here you are now, about to talk again. You prayed it went smooth.

He huffed, giving annoyed glances at some of the people in the store, "I know this place is'a little bit crowded and all that, yeah, but," He groaned, rolling his eyes a bit, "I-Is the only place I could find in sush a short notice." You gave him a forgiving look. He smiled before going back to a rather upset frown. "I jus' wanna talk bout us, y'know.. See if we're, uh.." He looked up at you, meeting your stare, "What happen'd? We went.. Distant, luv." You frowned, nodding as you sighed. He stuttered a bit. "I-I dunno what happen'd.. Did yew, uh.. uh, mean to not text me or anyfing like dat?" You shook your head as you began to feel bad. It was like.. It was your fault.

"I-I really don't know wha' happen'd." He said again. You shook your head, honestly not knowing either. "It, uh.. confuses me." There was a moment of silence as you solemnly looked out the window before he let out a sigh. You looked back over at him. He looked down at his hands, speaking lowly, "I jus' want you to know that.." He looked up at you, pain in his eyes, "I loved you." You gulped as you felt your eyes water up slightly. You weren't the one to cry easily, but when it came to family, friends, or especially, Murdoc, you melted faster than any candle. He looked away again, "And.. I really do miss our.. relationship. I miss it everyday." You shook your head slightly, wiping your eyes a bit. He sighed, muttering, "Oh, Satan.."

He smiled a tiny bit. "I sound a bit cliché sayin' dat, but it was the best.. best relationship I'd ever been in." He frowned. You can tell he knew, yes it was the best he had been in, but he screwed it up. "Er, it was a lot betta than that shag back in Mexico." He rolled his eyes, joking around. You gave a soft chuckle, knowing how he would get playful sometimes. But, the atmosphere was quick to become heavy again. He sighed, mumbling another, "Oh, Satan.." He looked up at you again, "I miss what we had, though." Another silence came between y'all.

"I'm sorry I 'aven't been there.." He placed his bony hand on yours, causing you to look up at him, small tears still in your glass like (E/C) eyes. He slid the hand under yours and placed his other one on top, still looking you in the eyes, "But, I-I promise yew, I'll be back." He gave a soft, almost, pleading look. "I'll be as.." He paused looking around, "Satan, it's so loud.." You slightly giggled at his complaint. He continued, "I'll be.. whatever you want me to be." He smiled softly, giving a tiny more of a grip onto your hand. "Alright, luv?" You looked away smiling softly, feeling your face warm up a bit. He lowered his head a bit, trying to meet your gaze again, "Alright?" You finally looked back at him, nodding.

He shook his head, slowly releasing your hand, "Sorry," He mumbled, "I jus'.." He looked around, scowling a bit, "I wish I could tell all da people in dis place ta shove it, yeah.. Ta get out.." You chuckled at his continuous complaint. He huffed looking at you again, "Ya can't do dat. No, c-can't do that. Definitely can't do that." He stuck his tongue out, bummed. He rested his head in his hand, looking at you with a annoyed look, "They're all so loud." He shook his head, going back onto the topic.

"But, I wanted ta meet yew in public and be with yew jus' cause.." He sighed, "I think we, uh, left it in da wrong way.." You nodded, agreeing with the man. "And, I apologize.. For everything that happened.." You felt your eyes sting again. "I didn't mean fo' any of it ta go wrong.." He shook his head, looking down for a second before grabbing your hand gently and looking you in the eyes. "I jus' hope you could forgive me. I-I didn't mean for it ta go all wrong.." You heard his voice crack, making you look up to see his eyes well up a tiny bit. He sniffed, wiping his eyes quickly, "Alright.." He looked at you, a plead look in his eyes again, "But.. Can yew give me a second shot..? Please? Jus' a little, little, little, little second shot?" He held one of your hands in both of his again, rubbing it soothingly. You sighed, looking down for a bit.

"I promise you I'll be anything you want me to, right.? I will..Go to the ballgames, I'll uh.." He looked up at the ceiling for a second, "Uh, do things on weekends, yeah, I'll, uh, I'll- uh, make sure I set aside time fo' yew, apart from me music." He looked back down into your gaze who now returned onto him, "I promise, luv." You finally shed a tear. You were so torn in two. You didn't know if he would keep his word, yet, you feel as if he's actually changed. "Alright, jus' give me anotha chance, please." You finally spoke, odd that you hadn't spoke the entire time,

"Murdoc.. After a almost 3 years of you just.. Emotionally hurting me, it's just hard to instantly say yes. I don't know if you'll actually keep your word but.. I'll give you another chance, but only one. Screw it up, and you screw it up." You said firmly yet hesitantly. His eyes seemed to lighten up. "Would you let me do that..?" You looked to the side, still hesitant on the decision. He rubbed your hand softly again, "Please..?" You sighed, finally nodding. He smiled, the plead in his eyes now joy. A heavy silence filled between y'all as Murdoc knew he couldn't mess this up. Not this time.

Finally, he sighed, "Satan, I've been so messed up with all this stuff, yeah?" You frowned a bit, shaking your head in agreement. You too had been a little.. off since he had left. You felt like a piece yourself was missing without him. Your gaze went back up to him once he continued talking. "I've uh.. I've been self destructive. I've.. Ruined my life, but.. I had no intention to ruin yours.. I'm sorry, luv." He looked you in the eyes, rubbing your hand again. You smiled softly, looking down to the side, a strand of your beautiful (H/C) hair falling in your face. He smiled back, fixing his gaze on the drink he had ordered you. "How's your drink, yeah? You like what'ch yew ordered?" You nodded, taking a sip of the, now watered down, (F/D). "I-I didn't know what'ch yew wanted, so I just got you, uh, y'know, whatever.. whatever the special was, and all that stuff.." You chuckled, taking another sip of it. He picked up his cup shaking around the drink which wad halfway empty now, "I'm drinkin' one of those 'frappie' fings, yeah, the weird fings with the whip cream and they're cooled, yeah. It's very fattening, is, is, really yummy. Yeah, love those things.." You giggled some more, shaking your head and looking out the window again. You smiled, now enjoying the mans presence again.

He finally sighed, "I jus' hope you can take me back, alright.?" You nodded, looking down a bit. You were still torn but, you were pretty sure he could change. He nodded, looking to the side. "Alright.. I'll give you a lit'le bit ta think 'bout it, alright?" You looked up at him as he stood, laying down some cash on the table, "I'll see you late'ah, luv." You sighed, the only thing you heard after was the sound of those cuban heels and that noisy café. You looked at your drink, smiling. He changed.

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