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CHAPTER-15

Hae-won's POV

Days were going on slowly and steadily. I have been neglected by the whole family and it's been a week. Aunt and uncle avoided me like a plague and same goes on with Hoseok. Hoseok and I were officially husband and wife and no one can ignore that fact, not even Hoseok.

Hoseok and I share the same bed but there is a wide gap between us. We don't put pillows to put a limit. Instead we are so far away from eachother that noone amongst us tries to cross the line. I asked him that I will sleep on sofa but he said that he will not let me sleep well. He knew after all what Happened..I will never ever want to share the same bed with him. But still he wants me to suffer through what all he can do.

He thinks that the idea of making me sleep on the same bed with a person who hates me will never let me sleep peacefully. Which was true enough...the fact that we are husband and wife, share the same bed but still we are miles apart hurts me. And rest of the insult and foul words he spoke about me throughout the day some how made me cry. He never left an opportunity to make me cry or feel insulted and aunt was none the less. She was determined that I will never be the legal bride of the house. She will never accept me.

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"It's already twelve of night and Hoseok is still not home. I am so worried..even though I know that he doesn't likes me. But seeing him drunk...seeing him falling...seeing him unhappy and broken, somewhere effects me. I know he pushes me away like he doesn't need me. But I know he needs me...I need him...and I will stay with him through all his thick and thin and now we are even married." While I was busy thinking plans about how to deal with Hoseok.

The door of the room creaked open...and yeah I found Hoseok standing there. All his hairs were messy, his eyes were red and with his walking movement anyone can guess that he was drunk again. I sat up and stepped towards him to give him support.

"Dare you touch me...don't touch me" he said and jerked me still stumbling and trying to stand straight.

I hurried and closed the door behind. While he was adjusting I tried to hold him from behind. But this time out of nowhere he pulled me from his back and brought me infront. I thought he will push me again.

Bringing me close to him..he was staring at me like as if he was staring in my soul. Though he was a jerk, though he was bad,though he used me and hurt me....but still their was some charming persona that  my body ...my mind and me myself craved for him. Suddenly he cupped my face making me a little bit afraid.

"Hoseok...Hoseok..you need rest....you are drunk...." I tried to make him understand.

"No! I want to talk to you Haewon ....it's needed" he barked.

"We will do all the talking when you will be in a fresh mood...and will not be drunk. Today you are out of your senses. So you sleep tonight and we will talk tomorrow" I was trying to explain the stubborn man standing infront of me while he fastened his grip on me.

"Haewon why you did this to me...why you married me?! I don't deserve you. Infact I don't deserve anyone. Why you married me??!!....why you spoiled your life marrying someone like me who can never give love to you?? What is that much?..Was it that necessary to marry me??!...you know I would hurt you...you know I used you...still you agreed...you know I am never in my senses..but still you married me....why? You know that it would have been fine between us....we could have stayed friends forever....I never hated you....I still don't hate you. I try to hate you but you know what, I can't hate you. You are very pure.. innocent girl Haewon and a person like me will spoil your life. You don't deserve..me...I didn't hate you from the day one...but I don't even have the courage to be with you or admit that I care for you somewhere. I don't know what I am saying....but you know what this marriage spoiled Everything between us ....which could have happened...you spoiled it...."he was mumbling. This condition of his and those words brought tears to my eyes.

"Hoseok....now we are married. Now whatever you are and whoever you are...whatever you do...but you are my husband...and I want to be devoted to you...I have always been devoted from the first day. I want to be only devoted to you and this marriage and whatever I did was for your reputation...your family's reputation. There was no selfish reason of mine....." But before I could complete my sentence Hoseok brushed his lips against mine. For a moment the tears which were all forced inside started to fall down.

He was being rough while kissing me but I wanted to enjoy it....I wanted to enjoy his possessiveness...he was my husband afterall.

His fingers brushed through my hairs and rested on my nape...pulling me closer to deepen the kiss.

It's hot...and the atmosphere was getting hotter. But I wanted more...I wanted to feel him...I wanted it. And I won't hold myself this time...afterall now we were married. The desires that I have kept hidden from so long he and his wild kiss has aroused it somewhere. I can hear Hoseok's ragged breath near my ears...and his hot lips on mine.

At one moment he tried to pull away but I wrapped my arms around him..tugging his bottom lip with my teeth refusing to let him go. He was a little shocked but still he continued to kiss me seeing how much I needed him ....how much I wanted to feel him. And suddenly he pushed me on bed and hovered on me.

I felt his hand roamed up and down my thighs..squeezing the area close to my ass, and I could just moan...while we were kissing.

"Fuck...Haewon...!!" He moaned as I grinded myself against him.

I knew he wanted me the same way I wanted him. His body agreed, back to kissing my lips for a second. I knew he would take that kissing to where we both wanted it to be.

His eyes roamed on every part of me. I took his face in my palms and pulled him down until our noses brushed and foreheads rested against each other.

"I love you Hoseok" I whispered softly.

Feeling his eyelashes brushed against my cheek as he closed his eyes and his breath mixing with mine.

He hummed a little...and his body rested on top of mine, slightly circling my waist with one arm hugging me closer to him.

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Hoseok's POV

As I woke up in the morning I tried to hold my head...I felt like so tired and I think I was having a headache. As I shifted my gaze I found Haewon sleeping beside me...and her face rested in the crook of my neck. Her hairs were all messy and seeing her beside me in such condition I doubted if I used her again....but the way she was still in her dress I think I didn't have sex with her....but yeah I have displayed love bites near her neck...and I can see that. To assure myself that nothing happened between us I just bent to check whether she was still in her bra...her nighty had a deep neck so it was easy enough for me to peep....

"Hush!!!!....we didn't have sex...whatever happened between us...those kiss or love bites were just the effect of alcohol." I thought and placing Haewon properly on bed and covering her with blanket properly..I decided to take bath and go to office.

Before I could step out I just want to have a look at my beautiful wife. Beautiful wife!!! What am I thinking....but ofcourse she is my wife...she looked so calm while sleeping I think it's for the first time after our marriage that she slept this peacefully and somewhere this was giving me peace too. After adoring her for almost five minutes I stepped out of bed and went towards the bathroom.

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