Lost Girls: An Anthology of Poems

existential crisis

If I don't have ten extra-curricular activities, 

I feel unworthy,

I'm not doing enough I worry,

If I spend my time surfing the net,

I feel unproductive,

And wonder if I'm being self destructive,

If I spend the day studying,

I feel like I'm not living,

I'm afraid that years will go by 

In the blink of an eye,

And when I look back,

My life will be full of regret;

All the things I wanted to do,

But hadn't done yet,

If I go out and have fun,

I feel guilty for not working hard enough,

'Cause I always strive to achieve the best

Even if it makes me stressed and depressed. 

These are thoughts I constantly have to outrun,

So tell me, 

When will I be enough?

When will life be worth living?

'Cause right now I'm tired of existing

In an endless cycle of mundane routine.