Lost Girls: An Anthology of Poems

crippling anxiety

A waging war inside my head
I never seem to win,
Unspoken words wanting to be said,
Yet they are never able to find escape. 

Conversations replay themselves on a loop,
Like a broken record player,
But my mouth remains sealed shut,
Words trapped on the tip of my tongue,
Whenever among a group, 
Not a sound leaves my lips. 

I'm frozen—
Stuck inside the dialogue of my mind,
Not able to communicate with others in real time,

I'm invisible—
I'm there but people don't really see me,
'Cause I fade into the background,
Camouflage so as not to be found,
But if no one sees me, 

Am I nobody?

Truthfully, I have no idea why
It's so hard for me to talk,
To mumble a quick hello to someone,
Maybe just a one syllable hi will suffice,
But my body refuses to act. 

Can
anyone
hear
me
calling
out?

The days are getting darker,
All my body craves is to drift off
into a peaceful slumber,
To enter a place far, far away
Somewhere without the chaotic chit-chatter,
Where my anxieties can be put at bay.

As the quiet embraces me in its arms,
I smile, 'cause I'm finally completely

Alone.