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scarlett.turner: idk either brandon_arreaga: last pic is amazing scarlett.turner: @brandon_arreaga thank u toopoor: kristen and robert>>>>>> lilpeep: damnnnnn lilpeep: the 4rd pic😏😏 random.user7835: my fav load more comments
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nothing has really happened. expect for gus and me together literally 24/7. not actually you know what i mean. your probably wondering why scarlett did you accept gus's apology. it's because i need him. it probably didn't look like it but i do. i don't think gus knows that i need him. i don't know, i feel like he doesn't feel that way he used to feel.
"ayo scarlett you good?" tracy asked me. "uh yeah thanks" i said smiling at him. gus sat down beside me. "what's wrong?" gus asked. "nothing" i said. "i know when your lying" gus said. "i'm not lying i'm just a lil tired" i said.
yeah i was pretty much lying to everyone around me. brandon got with the girl he was talking to. she's like really protective of him. she thinks i like brandon for some reason. so i don't really have anyone right. i'm not friends with maggie. i talk to nate sometimes and layla is on vacation with her boyfriend so yeah i'm pretty lonely.
later that night.
me and gus came back to my apartment. "what's up you've been acting weird all day" gus said. "i told you i'm tired" i said. "tell me the truth" gus said. "that is the truth" i replied back. gus sighed. "come on" he said.
i don't know what me and gus are. are we together? i don't know. no we aren't. but i don't wanna get to close like last time and then him just leave again. but i am too close to him.
2 days later.
"where were you last night" gus said angrily at me. i've never really seem him like this. he was kinda scary. "brandon asked me come get food and then my phone died" i said looking up at him. gus pinned me against the wall. he studied my face. "tell me the truth" he whispered. "that is the truth" i said. "i'm going ask you again tell me the truth" he said. "gus that is the truth" i said. he hit his hand off the wall that was above my head. "DON'T FUCKING LIE TO ME" he screamed at me. i flinched. my eyes watered up. "g-gus i'm not" i said. he scoffed and turned away from me. "so if i go ask brandon what happened he'll tell me what happened" gus said. i nodded my head quickly. tears were still coming out of my eyes. gus stared at me. he connected our lips together. i kissed him back. i didn't pull away. he deepened the kiss by pinning me against the wall again. he pulled away and kissed my neck. i put my hand through his hair and moaned. fuck. what is happening.
gus was carrying me to my room. somehow our lips were still connected. we made it to my room. he placed me on the bed roughly. he got on top of me. "stop" i said. "huh" gus said looking at me. "gus stop" i said. "oh so now you don't wanna fuck me" he said. "shut the fuck up okay, nothing happened last night, i can't even believe you think it would you really think that badly of me huh" i said wiping the tears off my face. gus looked hurt. i don't fucking care. "leave" i said. "i'm not leaving scarlett" gus said. "no go, go fuck another whore" i said. gus smashed our lips together again. he pulled away. "i don't fuck with them anymore" gus said. "that's what you said last time" i said looking him in the eyes. "i promsie"
i don't know. i don't feel like i can trust gus right now. he said when we were friends with benefits he wouldn't fucking anyone, but he did. i don't even know what we are. that's all i've been thinking about all day. what are we? my feelings are still really strong for him. they never really went away. i really wish that they did, in that period were me and him weren't talking. but i also hate talking shit about him to myself. do i love him? no. i don't know. i would never fall in love with someone in a few months that quick. but he's different. he's special. there's something about him that i can't wrap my head around what it is. but he's addicting. i know that's cringy. but i don't know. it's the truth. he's really confusing.
"ima head back to mine tracy wants to record a new song" gus said. i nodded my head. "is that okay?" gus asked. "uh yeah that's fine" i said giving him a small. "aight i'll see you later"
i got in the shower and cried. i don't know why i'm even crying. he doesn't even know that i'm like this. its fine. i'll be fine tomorrow.
