Rather Pretend (Cameron Dallas)

Chapter Seventeen: Sudden

One last time- Ariana Grande

Chapter 18

The cold air embraces me as I run fast. The things around me drift rapidly when I run through the trees and the small buildings beside the streets. It's funny though because the hospital is 30 minutes away.

And its even funnier because I still care.

Now I have to run for 30 minutes straight. Or I can just ride a cab? Both works totally fine but I can't stop for at least a minute.

I focus on the road and the city lights are the ones bringing light in the street.
Its night time already and less people are outside except for drinking teenagers inside clubs and such.

A tall building sets beside where I stopped and I noticed its the hospital. So much for focusing.

I quickly run towards the receptionist while bumping people along the way.

"Excuse me, Trevor Fields please." I say breathlessly.

"Room number 257, ma'am." She replies while smiling. I muttered a 'thank you' and left.

I run towards the elevator but there is a lot of people and patients lining up so I decided to take the stairs instead. When I reached the 2nd floor, my heart is pumping like its going to go out any second. I slowly walk going to his room and when I reach there, I inhale air and have a short pause.

My nervousness is spreading like a wild fire inside me. There's a part of me that wants to let him die and there's also a part of me that wants him to live. Live a normal life and move on with whatever things keeping him from doing it.

I twist the doorknob and the first thing I hear is the beeping of the monitor. There, a guy is lay down on a hospital bed, tubes plugged all around his body, and an oxygen mask. His eyes are closed and I find it really peaceful.

Gina, Cameron, and Sierra are seated on a couch.

"Hey there sweetheart. I heard about you and Trevor. But still, thank you for coming." Gina stands up and hugged me and I gladly hugged back.

"Sure. After all the things he did to me, I admit I still care after all." I reply and she smiles wholeheartedly.

"Hi Sierra." I greet her and she smiles then nod. There was a long awkward pause.

Gina and Sierra might have sensed some awkward tension between Me and Cam so they fake cough.

"We will go grab some coffee downstairs." Gina says and blinked at Sierra.

"Yeah right, good idea mom." Sierra followed Gina and they closed the door.

"Hey."

"Hey."

Great. This is so much awkward than what I expected.

"I'm really sorry for not telling you Amanda. I just want to tell you in a right time." Cam explains and I shh-ed him right away.

"It's okay. I understand. Our problem right now is Trevor." I sigh as I look at Trevor carefully.

"What did the doctor say?" I hesitated at first but it came out as a concerned question.

"To be honest, she said that there is a little chance that he will survive with all the medicines and procedures that'll happen. But there's a big possibility for him to..." He stops and looked down.

"What?" My curiosity is killing me like hell.

"...give up."

"He had been forcing himself to be okay everyday but he kept it by himself and never told us. But soon enough he did. And he is already in Stage 3 of Heart Cancer. The doctor said maybe its because of depression when his mother died and he also felt guilt after what he did to you. Lets add that up to the cause of his sickness." He continues. Every word is a pain in my heart. All I can feel is...

Guilt.

"How did you know all this?" I ask.

"A. He told me some and B. He kept a diary." He stops himself to laugh and we chuckle right afterwards.

"Trevor Fields kept a diary. Wow." I chuckle again and Cam mutters a 'I know right'.

We have that one pause after we talk and the shocking thing is that one of Trevor's fingers twitched. (A/N: Cliche.)

Trevor's eyes starts to open and he smiles.

"Oh my god." I murmur.

"Take care of Gina, Sierra, Dad, Amanda and other persons that I care. Okay, Cameron?" Trevor says slowly and his face is really pale. Much paler than white.

"Sure Bro." Cameron smiles and Trevor smiled back.

Trevor says something really unclear and I couldn't make it out. The monitor beeped and he stopped breathing.

My world seems to stop as the beeping of the monitor beeps endlessly. Cameron hurries outside and shouted 'Help!'. Doctors and nurses stumbled into the room and got their tools. I can't move in my spot.

Tears flow rapidly in my eyes as they pump his chest.

"Excuse me dear. But we have to let you go outside first." The doctor said and I shake my head. But Cam took me away before I could do it.

Cam and I waited outside and the transparent glass is the only thing keeping me updated on whats happening.

Sierra and Gina rush towards us and they cover their mouths with their palms as they cry.

We stood there with shock and the only thing we need to do is hope for the best.

*

The doctor went out with a mask wrapped around his mouth.

"Is he okay?" Gina is the first one who asked.

"He didn't make it."

I always wanted revenge but this isn't what I want. I want him to apologize but not this kind of thing. This is too much.

Its like a thousand bullets go through my heart as it leave a numerous holes. I thought about the thing he said. But my mind can't make it out yet. Not in this state.

Every nerve and information ignite in my mind. I stare at the hallways as I process everything.

He just said the exact words I want him to say. Its clearly in my mind but my tongue cannot make it out yet. I cannot say it but I can think of it.

Everything just happens in a sudden and I'm not even prepared for this time. Never will.

You'll always be in my heart Trevor. Maybe one day I can let you go like what you want but right now you're like a trapped bird in a cage.

It seems impossible to get rid of this unwanted feelings but I never regretted in loving him.

One day this feelings will fade. And I know that.

Goodbye Trevor.

Maybe we can reunite again in Afterlife.

*

A/N

Its not really a cliffhanger chapter but I need some guesses for the words that Trevor said. RIP Trevor. By the way, exams are coming again so I can't be updating regularly. Just so you know. :)

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