My Wicked Prince [COMPLETED] (Haciendero's Series 1)

Chapter 41

'Turbulence'

"Doc? Ayos lang po ba kayo?"

I blinked twice before looking at Melody. Mukhang kanina pa siya nasa harapan ko habang may mga hawak na mga papeles na kailangan kong pirmahan.

"Huh?" Maang na tanong ko bago umayos ng upo.

"Heto na po yung mga files na dapat niyo pong pirmahan Doc." Melody smiled sweetly at me as she put the papers in my desk.

I sighed and picked up my pen. Wala sa sarili kong pinirmahan ang mga dokumento. Ni hindi ko na nga binasa ang mga nakasulat doon habang pumipirma ako.

"Thank you Melody." I said and forced a smile as I hand her the papers.

"Okay lang po Doc. Kung may maitutulong po ako o kung may problema po kayo pwede niyo po akong kausapin. Makikinig po ako." She then fixed her glasses and politely excuse herself.

Tumitig ako sa pintuan na nilabasan ni Melody. This whole week I noticed that I am always bothered and thinking. To be honest I have been overthinking and I don't like this feeling. For years I have been struggling to trust anyone. The reason why it took me years before I could finally open up with Nixxon.

I just felt like if I become close to anyone, there will be a time that they will change and if they change how am I gon'na catch up. What if they leave me? Maybe it was also because of the sudden change that had happened to me back then.

To know that all this time you really don't know who you are is the worst feeling I ever had. To know that the people you trust the most actually lied to you, that feeling where the people you treasure the most betrayed you. I want to lash out, I want to be mad at them but then how can I do that if my real mom who gave me away is sick? How can I do that to the people who did nothing but make me feel loved? Can I afford to make them feel bad?

I can't. and I know it's a bad thing because during those times where I am so confused, I never got the chance to express myself.

And then there was Vaughn, siya lang ang tanging maasahan ko sa mga panahon na iyon but he also broke my trust. And this whole courtship that he's doing is not helping me. I am slowly being drawn again, I am slowly falling. I'm afraid I might go back to that little Lavinya who would be willing to endure the pain just so she'd be in Vaughn's embrace. Just so she'd have that wicked prince she's blindly... in love with.

That is why I already decided. This is my final decision and there will be no turning back. Vaughn is no good for me, he will never be good to me. Whatever he's up to right now, I will make sure I will not be a victim.

Sumandal ako sa swivel chair at tumitig sa ceiling ng aking opisina. Natigil lang ako sa pag-iisip nang tumunog ang cellphone ko. I saw Raphael's name flashing on my phone's screen. Umayos ako ng upo bago ko sinagot ang tawag niya.

[Hello Lavinya.] I heard his jolly voice on the other line.

"Hello Raphael, napatawag ka?" hindi laging tumatawag si Raphael sa akin kaya this is kind of unusual.

I heard Raphael's nervous chuckle before he spoke. [Uh, wala naman I just want to check on you.]

"Well, I am doing good. How about you?" I asked with my usual formal tone.

[Well this past week is really hectic, pasensiya ka na Lavinya.]

I bit my lower lip. Sa totoo lang mas gusto ko pa na mas abala si Raphael sa trabaho niya. I kind of feel guilty na binigyan ko siya ng pagkakataon na manligaw kahit na alam ko na wala naman talagang pag-asang magkaroon kami ng relasyon.