Chapter Nineteen - Torn Between Two

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I just finished the most amazing set ive ever had. Chris came on stage for the last song to sing along to our brand new single that we wrote together. After that was we walked off stage and there stood Andy, waiting for me. 

"Andy?" I called out as he was about to walk away. He looked nervous but i had no clue why. 

"H....He....Hey." He stuttered and waved. He looked like he was about to shit his pants. I turn to Chris who looked stunned.

"Im going to talk to him. You go get ready for your show." He nodded and walked away and so did my band mates. It was about time i talked to Andy. Maybe we could be friends again and maybe i can tell him about Chris and I.

"Whats up?" I ask, wanting to know why he was waiting for me. He seemed hesitant at first but then found courage within him self to speak.

"I um..." He paused. "I wanted to talk to you." He blurted out in a panic. Why was he so nervous? What did he want to talk about? I hope its not when i ran away. I mentioned him to follow me and i took him to the seats near the food trucks, where we sat down.

"So. What did you want to talk about?" I folded my hands on the table staying completely calm, while Andy seemed to be having a nervous break down. I had to make sure he knew it was ok to talk about anything he wanted to. "Look. Im sorry about before.  Im sorry i left in a hurry and i didnt talk to you for seven years Andy. It was stupid and selfish of me. It wasnt your fault i left. Your my best friend. Till the end." I smiled. Andy seemed shocked but every word i said were true. All these seven years i didnt talk to him and for what? Because i liked him and i couldnt be with him? How stupid of me. 

"Wow. I dont know what to say." He was speechless. We sat there in silence for a couple minutes and as each minute passed, my mind raced back to high school. All the fun i had with Andy and prom. I had to get these feelings for Andy out of my head. Im with Chris. 

"So what did you want to talk about?" I spoke out so that i could stop thinking about Andy. He took a deep breath before continuing.

"I have been meaning to tell you something for a long time." He swallowed hard and took another deep breath. I was on the edge of my seat as he was about to tell me some tea. "Charlie. Your my best friend, for a long time. And for awhile i was with Juliet and i did love her." I rolled my eyes. I hope he doesnt tell me some shit like Juliet broke up with Bryce to get back with Andy or he tells me he still loves her. "But thats besides the point. Even though i was with her, i liked someone else. I didnt want to believe it at first but after a long time i realized i loved this person. And Charlie, that person is you." 

Did he? Did he just say he loved me? After so many years of loving Andy? Did that mean the kiss at prom did mean something? But why now? Why wait so long to tell me? Now its too late. I started to tear up. This was all to much for me and i wanted to escape. I looked to Andy who seemed worried, then i looked to the stage where Chris was performing. Torn between two boys. 

"Are you ok? Whats wrong?" Andy asks, putting his hand on mine. I looked at him, tears finally falling from my eyes. Andy looked sad, he thought he hurt me. I didnt know what to do. He finally said he loved me after so many years but it was too late. All those days and years moping that he never loved me and wishing he was mine, to now it all become true and go to waste.

"Charlie talk to me." I shook my head. I cant be here anymore.

"I have to go." I quickly got up and ran away, crying the whole time. I had no where to go, no one to talk to. All my tears blurred my vision so that i didnt see when i rammed into someone. 

"Im so sorry." I said, wiping my eyes to make sure the person was ok. When i looked up i was surprised to see a worried CC. 

"Girl what happened?" I hugged CC tightly, almost taking the breath out of him. I cried more into his arms. "Come on. Lets go somewhere to talk." But i didnt want to go anywhere. I wanted to go home, but CC couldnt come home with me. He was on next after Motionless In White.

"I want to go home CC. Away from here. Away from Chris, away from Andy." He stroked my hair and nodded his head.

"How about you wait for me in your car and after my set we'll go where ever you want?" I nodded my head, wiping more tears. My make-up is probably ruined by now. CC walked me to my car and i sat on the floor boards of the back seat so no one could find me. 

"Ill come as soon as my set ends. I promise." He said before running off. Im glad CC was there for me. He always was growing up, until he moved away. 

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I ended up waiting in my car for about an hour before CC came to save me. Alice and Chris have tired calling and texting me so many times, but i never answered. Once CC got in the car, i went to the drivers seat and i drove out of there as fast as i could. I drove all the way to my house, not even caring that CC found out where i lived. We went in and i told him everything. Everything starting form when i left Ohio to Andy finally confessing his love for me. It was a lot to take in but CC was a good listener. 

After awhile of talking, it was about 7pm and the first day of the festival was about done by now. Everyone tried calling us ever since we left, but we just ignored them. The door bell rang but we decided to just be quiet and pretend no one was home. I didnt want to see anyone right now.

"Charlie!! Its me!! Open up!!" Chris yells from outside. Neither of us said a word. I hope he goes away. "Come on Charlie!! Im worried about you!!" I felt so bad for Chris but its best for him not to see me right now. If he found out about what Andy told me, he'd freak out. Eventually he gave up and went home. 

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CC ended up staying the night at my house, after i gave him a tour. He loved the place and was extremely jealous. I was so not ready for day two of the festival. 

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A/N: Not going to lie i had trouble writing this. I kinda rushed but it still turned out good and relevant to the story line and/or plot. After the festival chapters, i have no idea how im going to progress the book. Heck, im thinking of new plans as i write. So we will see what next chapter is about.

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