It been a year since the wedding and seeing Chris for the last time. Ive had good days and then i had really bad days. And of course Chris told Andy about my depression so he made me see a therapist and they prescribed me with anti-depressants. So far its been alright.
When Motionless In White came out with their new album i listened to it on repeat in the dark for hours. I went to the show they played here in L.A. and cried. Fans around me tried to get me to cheer up or get me to tell them why i was crying at a concert.
"Mommy? Why are you Crying?" Amber asks as she walks into my room. I turned off the music and quickly wiped my eyes.
"Dont worry about it sweetheart. Why dont you go see what your dad is up too." She left the room and i broke down. I havent left the room all week. Andy has been trying to make me go out with him and the guys but i just couldnt find myself to go out. I was still hurting on the inside and not just because of Chris. I truly wasnt happy. I had a husband and a daughter but i wanted more. I missed making music, i missed going on tour and going to shows. I messed up my life when Andy came back. Maybe i shouldve never left Black Veil Brides in the first place. Maybe i shouldve cancelled that festival Andy was going to be at. I hated my life because of all the things i messed up on.
3rd person point of view
Andy just dropped off Amber at Juliet's house for the weekend so he could have the weekend with Charlie in hopes to get her out of her room tonight. Break her out of her shell. When Andy pulled into the driveway of his house he shut the car off and proceeded into the house. When he walked in and closed the door, he saw a letter right in the bowl where the keys usually go. It was addressed to Andy and Others. So he sat on the couch and started to read it.
To whoever is reading this right now. For some time now i have been struggling with a deep darkness within me. I prayed everynight for it to go away and even took medicine for it. Unfortunately it completely took over me. Im not saying i had a bad life or i hate my life because i dont. I love my husband and i love my daughter Amber. They were my tether to this world. They were my whole heart and soul. Juliet, im sorry we wernt friends back in high school. You are an amazing woman and im sorry i hated you back then. You are an amazing godmother. CC, thank you for being my older brother. Thank you for always being there for me when i had gossip or any advice i needed. To the boys of Black Veil Brides, thank you for bringing out my passion for music. Thank you for being my first band and not being mad when i left. Thanks for always being on my side. To my old band mates. Thank you for giving me the chance to make music with you and have a killer fan base. To the boys of Motionless In White, you guys were my second family. I always loved when we hung out and when we sung songs together. All the laughs we shared will forever echo in my head. Andy, I love you, with all my heart. Please dont be sad or beat yourself up. You tired to help but nothing worked. Its not your fault this darkness grew so big. You were an amazing husband and best friend. Lastly, Chris. Its not your fault either. The years i had with you were amazing and i missed you so deeply. Once again im sorry for hurting you. Please take care of Andy and Amber. Dont let Andy follow me.
~~~~ With all the love in my heart,
Charlie
Andy dropped the letter, tears falling from his eyes as he ran upstairs to find his loving wife. He ran into their bedroom to see Charlie passed out on the floor with an empty bottle of pills in her hand. Andy screamed and cried for her to wake up but she never did. Even when he called 911 they couldnt save her. She was already gone and that broke Andy. He couldnt stop crying. He called his band mates and broke the news, crying. They rushed over to the house to comfort Andy. He showed them the letter and then they all cried in silence.
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Andys pov
I threw a rose on the coffin as they lowered it in the ground. I couldnt stop crying. MY heart ached. I waited years for Charlie and when i finally married her, the love of my life, i lost her forever. CC came over to me and patted me on the back, not saying a word. Everyone was shocked when they heard the news. They all flew out for the funeral. My parents were hurt the most. Probably more than me. After all she was like a daughter to them and losing a child hurts. Amber is going to have to grow up with out a mother.
"I want my mommy back!!" Amber screams and cries making everyone else cry harder. God it hurt but i promised Amber i would stay strong for her. I cant let her grow up with out both parents like Charlie.
CC walked away but i felt another hand on my shoulder. I looked over to see Chris. I couldnt blame him for Charlie's death even though she hasnt been the same since he left her life. I cant blame him. No one is at fault. After all, Chris is Amber's godfather.
"Im so sorry man." He cried along side me. How am i supposed to live without the love of my life. I guess none of us got the girl in the end. "I'll be here, just like she wanted. I'll be your friend to lean on, i'll be there for Amber. Its what Charlie wouldve wanted." I nodded and cried more. Eventually we left the cemetery and went home. No one said a word on the way home, just the sound of her voice filled the car, making us all weep.
This will affect us all for years.
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Thats it. Thats the end. But dont worry there will be another book. Two actually. Two coinciding books. One of Chris's POV and findning love after Charlie and one about Amber. Her grown up life. So stay tuned for that. Let me know how you feel about the ending.
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Love At Last- Andy Biersack- Sequel
Fanfiction**May change the ending!!** Its been 7 years since Andy has seen Charlie. Things for the both of them had been successful with their careers but not so much with their personal life. As Andy struggles to get connected with Charlie again, Charlie st...
