Our Last Dance

If It Did Happen

1 September 2020

Schools exams are right around the corner, and you've(very smartly) decided to ditch on school since you feel like studying alone is a much better option. You've been working since 10am without food or water, and you've had a few naps halfway through, but now you're awake once more. You look back at your wall clock. 3.05pm. You throw your pen onto your textbook, head spinning due to the algebraic expressions stuck in your brain.

Another day back home, spent on literally nothing.The same. You still aren't able to think of a solution to this problem about liking Itadori. It's like a storm in your head, all hazy and confusing. The worst part is, he doesn't understand anything. He's too innocent for this. He can't know the rumors about you, or he'd leave.

Suddenly, you hear a sound from your window. Once, twice, thrice. A scratch has appeared on it, and when you take a closer look, another knock scares you, making you yelp. It's a pebble. You look down, to see Itadori right there, waving and smiling widely back at you. You swallow your pride. You open the window, and look down back at him. "Go home!" you yell. "I need to talk to you!" he yells back, still smiling. How do you get a boy out your front porch? You whip out your phone, typing it in on Google. But it's too late. The boy is ready to grab onto the vines of your house, about to reach you. "No! I'll open the door! Wait there!" you panic, running out your room, down the stairs. If he falls, he's gonna break a limb. and you don't want that. You open your door, when you see his silly face, you give him a good smack. He does his usual "Owww" and rubs his face, but the grin that's stayed makes you believe he's starting to like the pain. "Get in, dumbass." you pull him in, closing the door. Who knows what could happen if one of the kids in school finds him at your porch?

"What are you doing here?" you demand an explanation, obviously crossed. Instead, Itadori looks around your house, giving his welcome. "I need to see you." he tells you. Wait...he's supposed to be in school. "Why aren't you in school?"you gasp. He faces you, this time shrugging slightly. "To see you." he repeats. My god, this dumbass. You lead him upstairs, to your room, and finally close the door.

"Uh, Y/n?" he asks suddenly. You move back a little, knowing well this isn't going to end well. Why does he want to see me this badly? What is he hiding? Does he still like me?

"Woah, your room is really big." he says, looking around your walls. The sheets of your bed is still in a mess and your mangas are all over the place, as well as the leftover food you kept at the corner of the room is staring back at you, your stomach curls. "What do you want to tell me?" you get to the point. If he confesses, you hadn't thought of what you'd do. You hadn't had the slightest clue, and God decided to go "Oh, let me test you right now!" and boom! He's here, right in front of you. If he confesses, you'd have to turn him down. Nice and easy. That's the only way to go. For the benefit of both of you. But Itadori's next move surprises you, and it's happening too fast that you don't react in time-

"Y/n, all this while I've... I actually-"

"No! Stop!" you say, pointing him down. give it to him, give it to him bad, you say to yourself. Let him go, set him free. His eyes grow wide, looking almost afraid of you. "No..don't do that. Don't say you like me, and you love me and all that shit because I can't although I love you-"

"Can't what?" his voice surprises you. You look back at him, mouth agape. He analyses you, from head to toe, toggling now between your lips and your eyes. He's begging to know.

"Can't be with you." you finally sound. Itadori shakes his head. At this moment, in this silence, Itadori is at a loss of words. Which is terribly scary, seeing someone so chatty and bright about life lose sight of his happiness. You're breaking him inside, and you can only watch as he crumbles. This is it. You're losing another friend.

You close your eyes, hoping he walks out the room and leave you for good.

But he doesn't.

"You never told me you loved me." he says back, like he's still confused by the fact. Has he not gotten the hint? Right, you hadn't left any hints at all. The boy begins to laugh, covering his face, jumping all around you.

"YOU L-LIKE ME? REALLY?" he yells and screams like boys do when they watch football and their favorite player scores. Your consciousness shoots up and you realize, he literally got the wrong message. But he's dancing on the spot, grabbing you by the hands and making weird tunes, singing to random love songs, spinning you around. It's like the worst feeling in the world is throwing an uno reverse card at you. And you're not complaining. No, no this is all wrong-

"No, I'm saying I can't date yo-"

"It doesn't matter Y/n! It doesn't matter if you think I hate you!" he finishes your sentence for you.

Before you know it, he lifts you up with both hands, raising you, and at that moment you're high up in the air and he's there to catch you, you're not afraid anymore. You no longer want to think about anything anymore. Who knew being so far from the ground can make you feel such ecstacy? You gaze down at him, smiling uncontrollably, focusing on his expression. The look on his face while the rest of the world spins around you, how he makes you laugh, how he never wants you to be hurt, how he cares. He cares.

He puts you down gently, his hands resting on your hips, but you're both still spinning slowly. Everything is at a standstill, and everytime it does it's because he's here with you. "Because I love you too." he breathes, looking down, back to you. For now, everything doesn't have to be bad anymore. It doesn't matter if people say bad things about you from now on. Nothing else matters, because you have him by your side. At this moment as you hold on close to him, you no longer worry about what's to come. Because he loves you. And for now, that's all that you need to hear.

As you dance with him to the sound of his warm humming, you hear his whisper in your ear.

"Y/n." he suddenly stops humming.

"What?"

"I came to say, that I brought the money to pay you back for the chips."