I'm Not Crazy || Taekook

Downward Spiral

The inspector had been gone for a while now but I was still in Taehyung's dorm because he was over at Jimin's. The guys went back to their normal lives, smoking, playing cards and watching TV. I however, sat quietly on my bed just watching as they acted like I wasn't even there.

Taehyung walked out of the shower with a white and fluffy towel around his waist and a smaller white towel in his hair which he was rubbing. He walked out of the bathroom and took a look around the room. His eyes locked with mine and he glared at me with a scowl on his face,

"Why are you still here?" He questioned, eyes full of hatred,

"Because they haven't called me back yet," I replied, moving my head side to side and leaning forward as I did,

"Maybe they never will. Maybe they're sick of you and this is how they got rid of you, I would respect that," He said smirking, clearly trying to get a reaction out of me,

I clicked my tongue against the roof of my mouth, "I hate you with every fiber of my being" I growled, gritting my teeth,

"That's it Monkey Brain, embrace the dark side," He said patting my cheek before climbing onto his bunk,

I felt my ears become hot and anger filled me, "You don't even watch Star Wars!!" I shouted up at him,

__________________

"He frustrates me beyond belief!" I vented to Jimin as I began to unpack my things aggressively,

"I've known him for a while and I know how obnoxious he can be so trust me, I know" Jimin said calmly, folding my clothes that I had just thrown onto my bed,

"What he's saying isn't even the worst part, it's how he says it and his facial expressions... I have this intense urge to punch the sh*t out of him" I grumbled, putting my suitcases away on the floor of the closet

"That's normal after breakups" Jimin said, "You build resentment against the person and even the littlest things can piss you off,"

"I just hate how I always see him around, he's everywhere I go," I said throwing myself on my bed and looking up,

"Well, there's nothing we can do about that. Everyone here lives in close quarters and always see each other. It's just something you'll have to get used to. Trust me, after a while, you won't even be bothered when you see him... all in time my friend" He said, setting my folded laundry aside and sitting on the edge of my bed, looking at me,

I sighed and put my hands under my head. I didn't respond to him because I didn't know to say. I could feel myself slipping into sadness. I felt like I was being sucked into my mattress and into a glumly and depressing world. I had been trying so hard to avoid being like this but it was becoming too much. Between my feelings of sadness and my hatred for Taehyung, I wasn't in the great mindset. I was so constantly overwhelmed. I could feel Jimin, Hoseok and Jin feeling sadness and being sorry for me all the time and I hated that. If it continued to be this way, they'd start seeing and treating me differently and I didn't want that.

My mood dropped and it felt like all the happiness was getting sucked from my body. I hated feeling like this; like I was getting thrown into a dark pit and I was hitting rock bottom. I couldn't hold my emotions back anymore. My eyes filled with tears and I started silently crying on my bed. Jimin's eyes widened before he laid down next to me and gave me hug. I curled up into his chest and cried in his sweater. Neither of us said anything to each other, he just rubbed my back while I cried.